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Blue Moon Love -- by Dagney Concludes...

As she rode him and looked into his eyes her body glistening and flushed with their lovemaking he knew he could no longer deny his feelings for this women. She was his woman... It's not just lust; it's so much more over the top than passion. His body and blood sung out in need for this red-haired siren. He felt complete only when they were together, when he could see her, feel her, she is mine... The sound of my name on her voice as she climaxed and the resulting shock wave of pleasure she sent through my entire essence. " Willow" he yelled for all to hear. He took her into his arms "I love you Red, I love you so much."

" I know", she purred, " I Know", " I love you too Spike"

He kissed her forehead eyes and lips softly. " You do?" he asked red tears in her eyes.

" How could I not, We're connected somehow, I came through time to be with you and love you, fate wanted to take you away from me.. but You fought against fate, came across time for me... You were willing to give up your own life for me... You are my life, you and I are one joined by love, and our child is a gift of grace acknowledging this fact.

Willow's stomach growled loudly, " The baby is hungry she laughed."

Spike kissed her nose and rolled out from under her, "Hey where do you think your going" Willow asked in annoyance.

"To fix my wife and child something to eat" he responded grinning broadly.

Willow watched Spike's naked body move about the small cottage, collecting food from a hamper, setting items on the small table. < Mental note to me, Keep the man naked as much as possible> She marveled in his grace and how when he walked the muscles of his lean legs contracted his ass cheeks leaving a concave valley just below his hips. Willow imagined how she could run her hands over this taught flesh between the hip bone, muscle and round back to grab his firm nether cheeks in her hands. She could grip him, and then taste his cock. ... < What the hell am I sitting her for, I'm starved>

She bounded out of bed and snuck up behind him as his back was to her making a jam sandwich. She wrapped her arms about his chest and purred into his back. " I'm soooo hungry, baby" as she nipped her teeth against his shoulder blade.

" I know, almost ready.."

Willow, grabbed him about the waist and turned him around and his bare backside was practically sitting in the sandwich.

" I thought"... his voice caught in his throat as Willow knelt before him.

" I'm starved Spike?" " How bout just a little taste to hold me over" she cooed.

Spike swallowed hard and felt his straining erection quiver at the sound of her voice. He griped the edge of the table, to keep from grabbing her head.

" She gazed up at him with innocent eyes and licked her lips" " MMMM looks good enough to eat"

Spike's legs started to shake in anticipation; < Thank goodness for the table behind me else I might embarrass myself further and fall over.

He watched as Willow snaked her pink tongue out of her mouth and she very gently licked the oozing pre cum from the head of his penis. He closed his eyes and moaned deep in his throat. < She's going to kill me> He grabbed her copper hair and pushed her head closer to him.

" Patience, Patience" she said and blew on his head.

" WILLLOWWW PLEASE" he begged.

Willow cupped his sacs between her hands and kneaded them softly.

He blew out small puffs of air between his clenched teeth.

She run her tongue from the throbbing vein at the base of his cock slowly up to the underside of his head. She flicked her tongue at the most sensitive juncture.

He pulled at her hair slightly.

Willow took this as her signal. She grabbed his base covered her teeth with her lips and took him deep within her mouth.

He screamed and muttered incoherent things. < Did he just shout out OH GOD?>

She sucked and licked him hard taking his member until it touched the back of her throat. She used her hands to supplement her oral ministrations.

He pulled her hair tighter and she felt his member surge his semen into her mouth.

She swallowed and sucked at him until he was pulling her head away.

He was panting and gasping but totally unable to say anything coherent.

She snaked up his body, licking her lips, " MMMMM you tasted so good"

He kissed her brutally wanted to possess her mouth like she had possessed him.

She pulled back.. "I want.. I want to.. " As she backed away from him towards the hearth. She pulled a blanket from a chair and spread in on the floor.

" What do you want, Red"

Willow kneeled on all fours, arching her backside seductively like a cat.

Spike couldn't believe how hard he was again and how he wanted to take her.

He moved and was kneeling behind her. He ran his hands over her back and around her chest to feel the weight of her breast upon his hands. She gasped softy and rubbed her ass into his pelvis.

" You want this," he asked huskily, nipping her shoulder blade and pinching her nipples between his fingers.

She responded by grinding her hips and ass into his cock.

He pulled back and ran his fingers along her dripping velvet channel. She jumped as his fingers pinched her erect clit. " MMMMM she groaned"

He separated her womanly folds and slowly entered her. Willow keened and thrust back, pushing him deeper into her womb.

Spike kept one hand on her hip and one hand on her throbbing clit and he began to thrust into her. He twisted her womanly bud felt her shake with a powerful orgasm. He continued to thrust into her, and moved his hand to her breasts. He enjoyed the way his movements across her breast to rub across his hands. Willow was keening his name, " Spike" He speeded up his thrust and moved his hand back to her core. He flicked his thumb across her clit and she screamed and came again, taking him with her. They lay in a tangled heaps of sweaty limbs.

" What's for dessert?" Willow asked coyly.

Willow sat Indian style on the floor in front of the hearth devouring her third sandwich. She licked jam off her fingers at looked at her bare chested, < lover>.

Spike watched in amazement as the small women ate three jam sandwiches, two apples, and a half of jar of pickles.

" What are you smiling about?" she asked.

" I've never seen someone so small eat so much at one sitting, Pet."

" I'm eating for two now, beside I worked up quite an appetite." She said and let out a small belch.

She blushed, "Oh God I'm turning into Xander." " Must a been the pickles" " Are there any more?"

Spike laughed, and handed her the jar. " Are you happy about the baby, Red,"

She crunched into the dill, licked the juices from her hand, " Yeah, I was a bit shocked at first, and I never planned to be pregnant at 18." " I mean if anyone told me six months ago, I would be pregnant and in love with you... Well I would have had Buffy stake em." She giggled. " Who a thunk it" Willow's face dropped.

"What is it, Red?" Spike asked moving towards her.

" My parents are going to flip... oh and Xander and Buffy.. God I can just hear Giles make that clucking noise with his mouth. She frowned.

" They already know," Spike stated.

" What!" "My parents.." she cried

" No, I don't think they know, but the Slayer, Peaches, Giles, and the Boy Dunder know." He admitted.

" How, I mean I didn't even realize it?" " The vomiting thing must of tipped off Giles huh?" " How freaked out are they?" she asked her eyes downcast.

It hurt Spike to see her concern about what her friends thought. < She's ashamed of me> " What bothers you the most, that you're pregnant or that it happens to be my baby?" he snapped defensively.

" No!" " It.. just that they have this image of sweet innocent me and.. I kinda feel like I've let them down."

" Right Luv, that's why both Xander and Giles assumed you were the other's lover?"

" What!" " That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.. Your way off base buster" she replied in annoyance.

" Hah, both the pup and the watcher new you were pregnant and assumed the other was the babe's father"

" Care to explain how they got that idea? " Spike goaded jealously

" Where do you dream this stuff up?" she said rolling her eyes, and rising to clean up the mess from lunch.

" They were the one's who believed it, Pet!" " And Angel thought you were lovers with the watcher too" he added.

"The blood loss must of scrambled your brains." " Everybody knows that Xander and I have been friends since diapers, and I'll refresh your short memory, the time he and I explored our... our.. potential.. you kidnapped us and we got caught kissing... and the whole thing was blown way out of proportion.. Why would anybody think anything was going on between Giles..." Willow stopped mid sentence and scrunched up her eyes in thought. " unless someone saw .." she murmured

" Saw what?" Spike said waspishly

" When I went back after you were killed in the alley.. I was kinda in shock and Giles found me and brought me home." She answered.

" And... what.. Did he take advantage of you.. or."

" No, he just helped me warm up s'all" she said her face flushing remembering the shower.

" How the hell did the wanker warm you up exactly?" Spike roared.

"Gee, it's not like you think. It was completely innocent." She replied defensively.

" What" " Your face was flaming a moment ago, and the pup wouldn't just pull something out of thin air." He challenged.

"He put me in a hot shower, to warm up and let me ware one of his shirts.. and I was crying and he hugged me a little that's all" she stammered somewhat indignantly.

" So he let you use his shower, ... and..."

Spike noted Willow's eyes veered nervously about.

Spike's eyes narrowed, " He undressed you... didn't he?"

" It's no big deal nothing happened.. besides I was in shock and had hyperthymia and he just need to help me so I wouldn't.. Willow stopped as she made it sound even more incriminating.

" He didn't ... get in with you?" Spike hissed

Willow swallowed hard, " Um.. I think so."

" You and he were naked and showered together." He asked, feeling rage boil in his stomach.

" I told you it was innocent, you make it sound like I'm some skanky ho" she mumbled tears in her eyes.

" Besides Giles doesn't think of me in that way.... You're the only one who seem to think I'm some kinda slut." Willow cried tears running down her face.

" I never said that... I don't think.. that at all... your just... so.." he stammered. < Great upset her just when she's starting to trust you. >

" Just what..." she shouted angrily < How dare he talk to me this way. He knows I was a virgin when I went to bed with William and now he acts like I'm some tease. >

" Your just so desirable and beautiful and any man who looks at you can't help but... want you." He explained.

" What?" " You think I'm some kinda guy magnet?" < Gee he musta hit his

head> She asked in disbelief.

" Yes, and I don't like it at all... men drooling over you and .."

Willow started to laugh, " I should be angry at you, but I'm kind of flattered... I think."

Spike glared at her.

" You're the only man I want to attract," she said wiggling her finger, giving him the come here sign.

" You think you can just wag you finger and I'm going ta come running?" He asked.

Willow slowly unbuttoned his shirt, which she was wearing, and let it slip to the floor.

" Can't we talk about this after dessert, I'm still hungry. " she pouted.

" Is that so, I'm a might peckish myself.," he said smiling wolfishly.

Spike moved toward Willow slowly. He noted her heart began to beat faster as he saw the veins in her neck pulse more rapidly through her translucent skin. He noted her nipples began to pucker. He walked past her and wrapped his arms around her from behind. He cupped her breast in his hands, and kissed her and nipped at her neck. She arched her breasts forward into his hands, and her ass jutted wantonly against his growing erection.

Willow moaned and as Spike slid his hands down her rib cage across her stomach and traced a horizontal line along her tender skin just above her soft curls. She hissed in frustration and arched back into his erection.

He ran his hands up her torso capturing her tawny buds between his thumb and forefingers twisting and pulling them gently.

She groaned out his name in desire

Willow felt so hot and tingly all over. She tried to turn around to kiss Spike. He held her firmly in place.

" Not yet" "I want to feast on you some more" He whispered in her ear. He licked her lobe and ran his teeth against her throat.

Willow felt his whiskers scrape against her tender flesh. Her toes curled.

She snaked her hands backward and grabbed his hips, trying to pull him closer to her.

" Get on the bed, Red" he said huskily releasing.

Willow did as she was asked.

Spike moved closer to the bed and slipped off his too tight jeans. Willow's eyes watched him hungrily and she emitted a low growl as his erect cock was liberated.

" Baby is still hungry" he growled back.

Spike went to the foot of the bed and took one of Willow small feet into his hand. He lifted it and stuck her big toe in his mouth.

" That tickles, " she squealed.

He sucked on the toe and bit into it

Willow sucked in her breath and bit down on her bottom lip.

He dropped the foot and grasped the other. He leaned his head slightly forward and ran his tongue along her arch.

" Does that tickle to baby?"

" Yes she gushed, more.."

He ran his palms over her ankles and up her calf.

" Tickles a little higher" she said weakly, wiggling her hips up off the mattress.

" It does" Spike said waggling his eyebrow.

He pushed Willow legs apart and moved his torso up upon the bed

He bent her leg up and lay his head back upon the mattress to suck and lick at the skin behind Willow's knees.

Her leg started to shake. " She keened.. his name and reached down and grabbed at his hair, wanting to pull him upward closer to her wet core.

He chuckled, "What's matter Red?" " Are you full yet?" He rolled onto his stomach and slid farther up the mattress his hands caressing the inside of both her thighs with his fingers. He could smell her desire and see her core opening to beckon him in. He saw her womanly juice run from her center down to her puckered anus. He dipped his head low and stuck his tongue in her anus. She shrieked and bucked in surprise. He grabbed her pelvis with his hands to steady her and ran his tongue across her perineum up to her lower lips. She was mewling her need for him. He moved his tongue away and she whimpered in disappointment. He nipped at the inside of her upper thigh. She again tried to thrust her pelvis forward. He was savoring her every sound, smell and taste. He wanted to drive her wild so she would understand the effect she had upon him.

Willow clutched the sheets beneath her and was panting. "Spike"

" Yes, Pet?" I want you to fuck me! Please"

" Not yet, I'm enjoying my dessert. He blew on her clit and she swore at him. " Just for that Pet, I may save my dessert for later." He teased moving back.

" No" her head shot up. " I'm still hungry she stammered."

The look in her eyes made him want to climax. He growled and dove his tongue into her center. He lapped at her juices and pinned her squirming hips down upon the mattress. He moved his mouth across her clit and he felt her tremors start to build. He pulled back. " No" she shouted

Spike started again at her anus and licked and sucked his way towards her clit. Willow was thrashing her head and hands against the mattress. He bit into her clit gently and she screamed and her whole body shook from her explosion. He slid forward and thrust into her with a groan. He held her head, but her eyes were not focused on his. He pumped into her as she continued to climax. He couldn't last with her clenching his cock in her hot velvet channel and he climaxed in a groan. He lay his head against her heart and

listen to her blood beat wildly speaking words of love only he could hear.

Willow and Spike spent the next several weeks in a routine of blissful solitude. Spike had explained the concern and worry that the Scooby gang had for Willow. Spike shared the detailed plans Giles had developed to ensure their safety until they could return home. He begrudgingly, admitted Xander's concern and devotion to Willow's rescue. He chuckled when he described Buffy's insistence she slay some warlock ass. He even admitted Angel's effort to stop Willow from being abducted and how close he came to losing his undead life because of this. He laughed out loud describing the looks on both Xander and Angel's faces when Angel drank Xander's blood during his crisis.

Willow enjoyed the time she and Spike spent alone. They spent a great deal of time outdoors upon the moors. They rode the horse miles each day exploring the endless mysteries and beauty of the moor. They teased and taunted one another in sexual delight as they explored their endless desire for one another. They didn't question the mystery of their fated love.

Spike got used to Ox blood, as he needed to consume large quantities to be able to maintain the magical healing spell, which enabled him to remain warm to the touch and walk in the sunlight. He reveled in the sight of Willow in sunlight. Her red hair shimmering pure copper silk, her fair skin flushing under the warmth of the sun or under his fevered carnal delight.

He smiled thinking about how long it took for the kitten Saber to warm up to Willow. The kitten appeared insanely jealous. She continued to follow him like a shadow. She hissed and spat at Will every chance she got. She expressed her displeasure in their lovemaking by leaving nasty presents upon the bed and near the hearth, the two most frequent locations of their erotic exploits. His gentle Willow went about wooing the kitten. She talked to Saber and fed her treats of milk and chicken. Saber appeared to have entered a tolerable truce with Red.

Tonight was the full moon. Both Willow and Spike were a bit nervous about returning home. Spike mind was a bit boggled in thinking that he had spent the best thirty days out of his century old life with this women and that her friends have been waiting in the clearing only about five minutes for their return.

He had not broached the topic of what was to happen when they got back to Sunnydale. He was extremely worried that her friends would turn her against him and try and break them up. He was more worried that Willow would realize how much more she deserved, and cut him out of her and their child's life. He still didn't quite believe that Willow was having his child. Willow thought she must be almost three months along by now. She kept asking him if she looked pregnant and if he would still want her when she was a big as a whale. His repeated reassurance usually led to them making passionate love.

Willow was worried about going back to Sunnydale and facing everyone. Part of her wanted to remain here with Spike and live happily ever after. Willow had used the past thirty days to strengthen her magic powers. She had amazed herself. As Willow was led to believe her powers seemed to be influenced and increased by her pregnancy. She meditated every day for at least two hours. She was able to levitate large objects. She was able to call upon the forces of Mother Nature, such as wind, fire, earth, and water in small measure.

As dusk approached, Spike and Willow had their last meal together. Both were extremely quiet, lost in separate worries about how their lives and love may change upon return. Neither shared their fears with the other, instead they gazed at one another with bittersweet longing. Their unspoken need for one another erupted in their fierce coupling. The only sound to fill the cottage was their passionate gasps, moans, growls and cries, as they loved one another in their desperation to remain as one.

Spike had turned the animals loose, and was checking the cottage for the final time. Willow was making final preparations in the magic circle under the bright moonlight. Spike entered the circle and went to the small wicker basket he had placed Saber in to remove her.

"Bloody Hell" he said.

" What?" Willow asked

" Did you see Saber loose?" he asked with annoyance.

" No", maybe she went back to the cottage, knowing her she probably went back and took a big dump in protest over our wild sex she laughed.

" I'll go and look for that damn cat." He replied.

Willow watched Spike retreat into the night.

Willow called out softly to Saber, stepping outside of the magic circle and moved toward the barn.

Willow felt the hairs on her neck raise. < Oh Goddess, It's Aaron, he's here.. I can feel him... Oh No.. got to get Spike. > Willow felt a strange tingling and pushing inside her head. She saw an explosion of color, Red, screaming.. She saw Henry begging Spike in full vamp mode to spare his life as Spike viscously tortured his friend with a railroad spike. The image flashed to Spike violently killing Randy and Mary, she felt sick as she saw her dear friends lifeblood being drained away by her lover.

Spike entered the cottage and in the dim light saw the Warlock Aaron petting saber gently.

" You are like the pox, incredibly difficult to get rid of." Aaron chuckled. " You know, I have pondered my fascination upon this mortal sortilege a great deal. At first I thought it was her powerful magic, I admit I find her strong passions appealing also but... I couldn't figure out what it was exactly.. and why in all my present incarnation I desire her above all others... until recently."

" Willow was to be mine before a long long time ago, you stole her from me before but I stopped you, It seems time keeps repeating itself, as you managed to take her from me yet again. However as before, she shall be mine and you shall die." Aaron menacingly growled, Angelus, Dru " Let's teach this wimpy vampire a lesson."

Angelus and Dru blocked the cottage doorway.

< Willow> Spike's mind screamed out.

Willow turned around to run toward the cottage to alert Spike, but she ran head long into his form.

She yipped, "Oh Goddess you know their here too" she noted his vampire game face. She hugged him and noted he felt very cold, too cold. She felt his strong arms pull her back and she so no recognition in his yellow demon eyes. " Spike, It's me, Come on, we've got to get in the circle and get back now!" she hissed pulling at his arm. "Aaron's put some sort of spell on you.. We'll take care of it once we get back to Sunnydale".

Spike growled, " You're not going anywhere Cutie!"

Willow dropped his arm, bile creeping into her throat, < NO NO> she screamed out for Spike.

The demon grabbed the women in his arms and lowered his fangs towards her neck.

Willow struggled and twisted trying to brake free from his grip. She felt his fangs puncture her neck and felt her hot blood flow into the demon mouth.

<Spike, her mind cried out>

Spike snarled his game face slipping into place as he moved toward Angelus.

" I HAVE SO HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!" He screamed lunging toward Angelus, midsection.

Angelus growled. " Get him Daddy" Dru chimed stepping back out of the way.

Angelus lashed out at Spike's midsection, causing him to double over in pain. Angelus then took his fist and slammed into Spike's jaw. " She must be quite the tempting treat for you to savoring her like candy." Angelus retorted. " Aaron says I can have a taste as soon as I dust you." Angelus laughed. " Why don't you show him what he'll be missing" Angelus taunted.

Spike rolled out of Angelus left jab and nailed him with a shot to his kidneys, and followed up by kicking his kneecap. Aaron projected the vision into Spike head. He felt pain and saw Angelus pinning down a naked and bleeding Willow and Angelus savagely biting her nipples and pounding into her as she screamed in pain. He saw Angelus climax and move his head lower to his lover's center to lick the blood off her legs. Willow was crying in pain and trying to get away. Angelus used his hands and reached up into her torn vagina and pulled out a small, bloody mass. Spike howled in rage and fury, trying to block the horrific images from his mind.

Saber startled by her master's distress tried to escape from Aaron's hands. He clutched her tightly. She bit his and got loose launching herself into his face scratching, and clawing him viscously. Aaron's concentration was broken for a few moments as he threw the damn cat off him.

Spike came out of his stupor and fought Angelus with ever fiber of his being. The man and demon would not loose her. Angelus was driven to the ground by Spike's attack momentarily dazed. Dru stepped closer wielding a slab off wood to whack the bad mad who looked like Spike off her Daddy.

Willow struggled against the demon Spike and felt her life ebb away. She had a flash of what her life was like, she saw her friends and family, she saw William and Spike, she saw a smiling red hair boy with blue eyes and sharp cheeks hugging Spike. She wouldn't let them take this away from her. She used her magic powers to call upon the Goddess of Winds and earth. A small whirlwind slowly built up twisting with all the rage Willow felt. It began to suck up rocks and stones. She called upon the Goddess of earth to help her move a large stone. Willow visualized with her minds'eye the stone smashing the demon in the back of the head. Willow felt the demon fall to the ground pining her underneath him. Willow was sucked into the darkness.

Spike caught the board and wrested it away from Dru. " Damn bloody Bitch" and used it to hit her up side the head. He bolted out the door calling Willow's name. He saw in the moonlight her lying on the ground, himself pinning her to the ground in a deadly embrace. " No.. No.. He saw blood seeping from the wound in her neck."

He picked her up and moved into the magic circle. Willow had lit all the candles. < Got to get her away. Giles will help. Think.. think.. of the words you heard her practice. Saber dashed into the circle and scrambled up Spike's leg over his back onto his shoulder. Willow lay unconscious in his arms. He clenched the charm bracelet so tightly in his hands bloody welts arose from the charms.

A white light and sensation of falling. Spike was back; He immediately started out of the circle.

" Oh God, Willow.." Xander cried.

" Is she all right.." Giles asked taking in her inert form.

" She's been bit" Angel gasped.

" What happened... Buffy" yelled.

" We need to get her to the hospital, now" Spike yelled moving toward the car.

Everyone piled into the car, Willow's form clutched upon his lap.

A deathly silence permeated the car.

" Faster, drive faster," Buffy chided, craning her neck around from the front seat.

" She' so pale" " Hurry"

" Xander had his eyes shut, he was crying unashamed and he was whispering a prayer softly.

Willow's body felt cold to the touch. Spike could barely hear her heart beating. " No ... NO.. Please don't leave me Red, Stay with me baby... I need you.. Stay with me.."

He pulled her unscious form closer into his embrace and buried his head into her neck.

Angel saw and Buffy felt Spike vamp out.

" No they both yelled in unison." Angel grabbed at Spike, and Buffy practically jumped over the seat.

" Stop it, you vamp her and you DIE." Buffy screamed.

" Think about the baby, man.." Angel pleased, into Spike's yellow eyes.

" I don't care about anything but her." Red tears fell from his vampire eyes. Giles said they were almost there and practically crashed into the ER room entrance before he was able to stop.

Spike was out of the car and yelling for help, "She's lost a lot of blood"

A nurse came forward with a gurney, " OK" what happened?" A doctor approached and barked out "get her cross matched and typed for transfusion"

Xander on Spike's heels, " No time, she AB positive the same as me."

" Are you sure, the doctor asked?"

" YES YES HURRY.

The doctor wouldn't allow anyone into the triage room. Spike had to be physically manhandled by Buffy and Angel to let Willow go. " If you don't stop there going to call security and kick us all out" chided Giles.

Spike relented and paced the waiting room as the doctors and nurses ran back and forth behind the curtain.

< This is all my fault.. all my fault.. I almost killed her.. how could I not know... She should have never came back in time.. I never should have..." Spike berated himself over and over.

" Spike what happened?" Giles asked putting his hand upon his shoulder.

Sike ran his fingers through his long dark hair. " I went back looking for Saber and ran into Aaron and HIM and Dru." Spike growled and confronted Angel. " Ever bloody time I turn around there you are"

Spike said grabbing Angel by the neck and lifting him up against the mint green hospital wall.

" You're just as obsessed with her as the Warlock!" he shouted, banging Angel's head against the wall.

Buffy ran to her love's side, punching Spike in the lower back. He turned on her in full vamp mode.

" He wants to fuck her... and hurt her.... How can you care about his sorry ass?" Buffy recoiled at Spike's words.

Angel moved away from Spike's grasp and sat in a chair looking guilty.

" So let me get this straight, you left Willow to go back for a saber and then dead boy and company show up?" he asked angrily.

" No... Yes... I went back for the cat... and they were waiting. I managed to fight them off but it was too late." He whispered as he hung his head.

" So who bit Will, Dead Boy or your Skanky Whore?" Xander demanded, getting in Spike's face. " Cause I say we do some slaying and finish this once and for all!"

Spike turned his back on Xander, began to pace again, and ran his hands across his taunt neck muscles. He squeezed his eyes shut trying to stop the tears from falling. < I did this... I did this all. Me..>

" Well, you still didn't tell me what happened to Will?" Xander asked in annoyance, grabbing Spike by the arm.

" I DID IT!.... I FUCKING BIT HER.... ARE YOU HAPPY NOW!" he yelled. < Maybe the puppy will stake me and get it over>

" You Bastard" Xander punched Spike hard. Spike stood there making no effort to defend himself.

Xander realized he needed wood. He moved away and grabbed an armchair and threw it against the wall near Spike's head. The chair broke.

Spike stood immobile. Buffy and Giles moved forward, nurses and other ER patients looked on in shock. Angel was across the room and grabbed Xander's hand armed with a deadly stake. " Stop it.. Xander.. I don't think you could do that Spike... what really happened?" Angel asked softy pulling a still swearing Xander back. Two security guards were on the scene.

Giles admonished his charges, and approached the security guards apologizing for the outburst, reassuring them that everything was under control, just upset about their friend.. no problems and that he would pay for any damages. The guards offered a stern warning and left.

" I want to know what happened?" Buffy said to Spike as he leaned dejectedly against the wall

" When I got back I found William and sent him to London. I rescued Willow from Aaron and Angelus lair and we went to the cottage on the moor. Everything was fine... we were so happy.. ."

"Angelus changed me in London about three weeks ago... that was three weeks ago in 1869. I was with Willow in the cottage but I felt it, I relived my death and life... If Willow hadn't helped me I'd be dead."

"Aaron put some sort of spell on me.. on the me in 1869 so that I wouldn't have any recollection of Willow."

" Tonight as I fought Aaron and Angelus... The demon I was bit her... I don't think Aaron planned it.. When I got away I found her on the ground him/me knocked out... she must have injured him somehow."

" Let me get this straight, both your evil twin and Angelus's evil twin demons have tried to kill Will." Xander sarcastically spat.

" Xander stop it,This isn't helping Willow," Angel pleaded.

" Well with you two as her buds why the hell does she need any enemies!"

" Please try and calm down Xander, we're all upset about this" Buffy said hugging Xander.

At that moment the group heard loud shrill equipment sounds coming from behind the ER bay treating Willow. They heard the doctor yell for the crash cart stat.

Spike slid down the wall and sat on his haunches, weeping openly. < Please.. Please let her live.. I 'll never hurt her again.. She deserves to live .. She has so much to give.. Please take me in her place... I'll leave her to her friends to watch over.. please.. please.>

Giles moved closer to the ER bay, whispering to Willow under his breath. " Come on Willow... Don't leave us... we all need you...."

Giles turned and looked at the dazed group in the waiting room. Angel was standing alone off in the corner looking guilty. Buffy and Xander were locked in a supportive embrace and Spike was weeping openly crouched defeatedly on the floor.

Giles thought.

He moved toward the group in the center of the room.

" Come lets all join hands and send Willow our thoughts of healing love." Giles asked.

The four pairs of eyes looked at him like he just started shouting obscenities.

" Get over here now" he growled " It won't hurt? Will it?" He chided.

Buffy and Xander moved quickly to his side followed by Angel. Spike looked up and Giles waved him over. Buffy already holding Xanders hand grasped Giles. Angel stood on the other side of Giles and grabbed his outstretched hand. Spike looked at the break in the circle, he moved between the men grasping their hands in his firm grip. Everyone closed their eyes as Giles said a prayer.

"God and Goddess, here our prayers and loving thoughts. Our dear Willow is the best among us. We will gladly give her our love and healing energies, May it be so."

As the group stood joined in silence they heard the comforting sound of the ER monitor beep in regular rhythm.

A few moments later the doctor came out of the bay and reported that Willow appeared to be stabilized.

" Will she be all right?" five sets of voices chimed in unison.

" She should be, she was in shock from blood loss, and it caused an arrhythmia sending her into cardiac arrest. The transfusion helped and we were able to correct the arrhythmia. Her heart is strong.

" What about the baby?" Giles asked.

" She pregnant?" the doctor asked.

" Yes" Giles nodded looking at Spike.

" We'll need to do some other tests first." The physician replied.

" Can we see her?" Xander asked grinning

" Not yet, she'll be unconscious for a while...let me run the a few tests and then I'll do a sonogram" the doctor answered.

" The father can be present for that, the doctor offered looking at the three men in the room uncertainly."

Spike moved forward, " Yes he answered" he didn't know what the hell that test was but he wanted to see Red as soon as possible.

Xander in relief after hearing that Willow would be ok, decided to get some celebratory snack food. " I'm going to raid the vending machine. Buffster care to join me?" he asked ignoring the two vamps. " Can we get you something Giles?"

" Yes, tea please." He answered politely.

Angel moved closer to Giles as Spike began pacing the small room again like a caged animal.

" Giles do you think there is any way that Aaron can come back and try and get and her again?"

" I'm not certain, he would need a talisman of hers.... The locket... if he still had it... although Willow said that she originally got the locket from your things assumed it was yours." Giles stated.

" I have several trunks of stuff from my Angelus days. Things that I kept as trophies to remind me of the pain and terror I caused.. After I changed I kept the things to remind me what an animal I had become .. and not to ever forget the horror and damage I inflicted." Angel explained

" I can search for it, it might help to know." Angel replied.

" Yes," Giles said removing his glasses and wiping them with a handkerchief.

Buffy and Xander returned, and Giles explained Angel's absence. The three friends sat quietly. Spike continued to pace as Xander shot daggers into his restless form.

The doctor reappeared, with a smile on his face. " The test so far indicate a healthy fetus, the babies heartbeat is strong, and I don't expect any residual effect from this accident."

" How would you like to see you child?" the doctor grinned at Spike.

Spike looked at the doctor in puzzlement. He followed the doctor into the examining room. His unbeating heart caught in his throat as he looked at Willow's pale, unconscious form lying under the bright fluorescent lights. He quickly moved to her side leaned down and whispers to Willow's inert form. " Oh Baby, I'm so sorry.. I love you baby... everything's going to be all right... the baby is alright to" he said as he kissed her softly upon the cheek and caressed her forehead.

Spike noticed the equipment stuck to Willow's pelvis. The doctor said to look at the monitor. All Spike was snow. He heard an incredibly fast heartbeat. " Is that the..? " he asked dumbstruck. " Yes. Look there the child is." The doctor pointed to the screen. Spike saw in black and white the tiny outline of a head, and impossibly small arms and legs. " Look .. Look, Red.. It's the babe.," he said with childlike glee as he held her hand. " Would you like to know the sex of the baby?" the doctor asked.

Spike nodded his head, " Your going to have a son" the doctor replied.

A few minutes later, Spike barreled out of the ER bay grinning like at idiot, he grabbed Buffy in a crushing embrace and swung her around laughing, " a son... were going to have a son."

Before Buffy could react to Spike's shocking actions, he let her go and grabbed Giles in an equally tight embrace and gushed some more. Giles groaned in pain but managed to pat Spike on the back. Spike released Giles and in his glee filled daze almost grabbed Xander. Xander's touch me and you die scowl, brought Spike back to reality. He composed himself and turned back to face Buffy and Giles. " The doctor is moving her to a room for observation overnight. He said we can see her then." He explained.

Angel had emptied three trunks of old stuff. He found an oblong silver locket at the bottom of the trunk.

He removed it and noted the silver chain was broken, the locket was scratched and was twisted ever so slightly preventing it from being opened. Angel twisted the locket in the opposite direction to free the clasp. He open it at saw a small picture of Willow and Spike looking lovingly into one another eyes. He read the inscription love always W.

Angel cursed himself for all the pain and heartache he had caused Willow and Spike as his alter ego Angelus. Angel, at first didn't remember Willow when he first met her in Sunnydale. He wasn't supprised because Angel blocked out a lot of the kinds of things that Angelus had done. Angel did however have some vague recollections when he lost his soul last year. He knew Angelus was taken with the redheaded friend of the slayer and that Angelus and made some long term plans to vamp the girl. Angel feeling sickened by his past deeds and actions, lest the mansion to return to the hospital. He would somehow try and make things up to his friend Willow and regain the trust of his childe.

The nurse said that Willow could have visitors and that she was regaining consciousness but only two persons at a time could visit.

Xander grabbed Buffy's hand, glaring at Spike. " Come on Buff."

Xander and Buffy entered Willow's hospital room. Willow was very pale and looked groggy. Xander sat on the edge of her bed and leaned down and kissed her softly on the cheek. " How's my bested Bud in the whole wide world?" Buffy leaned over and kissed Willow also, and sat in the chair near the bed and took Willow's hand in her own.

Spike loomed just outside the door with earshot of the reunion. He wanted to rush in but suddenly was scared to see disgust or fear in her eyes.

Willow asked, "Am I in Sunnydale? OH GOD THE BABY... is the baby alright... Spike... Spike." she cried unable to tell the awful truth.

"Hey Will's everything is AOK girl, your fine, the baby is fine" Buffy said squeezing her hand.

" What about Spike?" she whimpered "I hurt him... is... "

" You hurt him... " Xander exploded. " The God Damn monster almost killed you!"

" Xander," Buffy reprimanded, " He' s OK too, it wasn't really Spike who bit you... well it was but.. it wasn't.."

Xander jumped up off the bed; " I can't believe your trying to defend him... I don't understand the attraction you two have for dead demons." Xander was so overcome with anger and relief at seeing Willow he thought he was going to cry again. He stomped out the door and almost ran over Spike.

" God damn Ghoul" Xander hissed. "Tell me something,... Do you really have feelings for her?" Xander asked narrowing his eyes.

Spike nodded his head affirmatively. "Do you love her more than you love yourself?" Xander asked.

" Yes" Spike replied flatly.

Xander, stabbed his finger in Spike's chest, " If you really loved her you would get out of her life for good... what kind of life can you give her you.. you.. freak... We can take care of her... keep her safe"

Xander began to run out of steam, " Please I'm begging you do what's best for her." He said his eyes filling up with tears. Xander went down the hall to let Giles know he could see Willow.

Part of Spike wanted to rip the boy lungs out. The other part knew the boy was right.

Spike listened to Buffy and Willow talking softly.

" I was so scared... Aaron.. put images in my head.. He tried to make me think that Spike had tortured his friend Henry and... killed... Randy and Mary our friends... It was so horrible." " I know that Spike couldn't have done that and that the demon who bit me wasn't.. couldn't be my Spike

Spike squeezed his eyes shut.

Spike moved away from Willow's room passed Giles and Xander I the hallway. He left the hospital, and was stopped by Angel.

" Hey, is Willow alright?" he asked in alarm.

" Yeah she good, I need to get some air." Spike offered. He turned to leave.

Angel, touched Spike's arm and spoke; " I don't think Aaron can hurt her anymore... Giles and I were talking and I found her locket." " Maybe you can give it to her again.. I'm sure she'd like that." Angel said. Handing the locket to Spike.

" Angel ... Do you think you and the slayer have a future together?" Spike asked.

Angel felt like Spike kicked him in the gut. " No, why do you ask?" he responded defensively.

" Nothing, I didn't think so" Spike walked away into the night, holding the locket in his hands.

He went back to the clearing at Witches Hollow. Saber bounded up to him, mewling her distress at being left behind.

" I forgot all about you in the commotion, Pet." He said picking her up.

" I need you to do me a favor, OK." He asked looking into her green eyes.

Giles entered Willow's room and he approached her bedside and stood next to Buffy.

" Are you mad at me?" Willow asked with concern.

Giles thought he might cry, " No.. No.. Dear child, I'm glad you're alright, we will however be starting highly supervised lessons when you're better."

Willow eyes were drooping, Buffy said she was going to let Will get some rest and left her alone with Giles.

Buffy found Angel in the waiting room. " How is she?" he asked with concern.

"She's as white as a sheet, but she seems good.. she kinda wigged out about the good Spike/ bad Spike/Aaron thingie." Buffy answered. " Hey where is he anyway?" " The way he was carrying on before I kinda thought he would be spreading good parental cheer with Will."

" Spike's pretty shook up by all this, he's blaming himself." Angel responded.

" Well he can save the pity party for later Willow needs him right now." " Where is he?"

She asked.

" He went to get some air" Angel replied. " Do you think Willow would see me?" Angel asked with trepidation.

" I don't know." " She seems to have a better appreciation about the evil/good thing... I could ask her," Buffy said, reaching up and kissing Angel on the cheek.

Buffy reentered Willow's room to see Xander back on her bed eating junk food and Willow explaining her new found powers to an enraptured Giles.

"Hey, Angel wants to know if you're up to seeing him?" Buffy asked.

Buffy saw Willow's face contort with anger, pain, and guilt. Willow swallowed hard and nodded her head affirmatively. Willow asked if Xander and Giles could give her a minute with Angel alone. They nodded and left.

Angel's face lit up like a tree a Christmas tree when Buffy told him that Willow wanted to see him.

Willow managed a tight smile for Angel when he walked into the room.

Angel wanted to throw his arms around this tiny pale girl. He stopped half way to her bedside pined in place by her intense gaze. His mouth was dry and he didn't know what to say.

" It's good to see you Angel" Willow managed to utter.

Angel moved quickly across the room and knelt down by Willow's bedside.

" Willow, I'm so sorry for ... everything.. Angelus did... I... sorry he repeated" red tears ran down his face.

Willow, lifted his chin in her hand, " I'know... it's hard for me too... I can't help hating Angelus... but " she stammered; " I know that you're my friend." She said softly.

Angel cried harder,> The men he was now felt great respect and reverence for this amazing women.

" I'll try and make it up to you somehow.." he stammered.

" You already have" she replied smiling.

" Hey where is Spike?"

" He's been a complete wreak, Willow he loves you so much... He's so happy about the baby. Buffy told me that he was so happy after knowing you both were OK he hugged her and Giles, and almost hugged Xander" Angel chuckled.

" Tell him I want to see him." Willow said.

" I'll find him."

When Angel entered the waiting room he saw Spike and the gang talking to Willow's doctor.

As he approached he heard the doctor say that Willow could go home tomorrow but that he wanted her to be on bed rest for at least two days and then go to her regular doctor for a check up. He explained that if she should be able to resume her regular routine and get on track with regular pre-natal visits. He resurred Spike that Willow should have a normal pregnancy, and deliver a healthy baby boy.

The doctor said that Willow really needed to get some rest and he suggested that they all go home.

Spike told the gang that he was going to hang out for a while and that he was then going to go to Willow's house and fix things up for her to come home tomorrow. Saber poked her head up from Spike's jacket pocket, from which she had been napping. " Oh look a kitty" Buffy cried.

Spike managed to catch her before she jumped down to create havoc in the hospital.

"Giles, do you think you could drive Willow home in the morning?" " Oh course" he replied.

Angel Buffy and Xander left. Spike stood outside Willow's room. He quietly opened the door and found Willow sleeping. He sat next to her and stared at her trying to drink in her beauty and warmth. He wanted to memorize every line and angle of her face. He caressed her silky hair and touched her soft creamy skin. I love you more than than anything Red. .. anything" He leaned forward and placed the softest kiss on her lips. Willow sighed. Spike left.

Spike entered Willow's house and went up to her room. He put Saber down and she immediately curled up on Willow's bed. Spike sat down at Willow's desk and began to compose a letter:

My Dearest Willow,

Words can not express the multitude of emotions I feel for you. I love you with ever fiber of my being. I would do anything for you. You have filled my heart both as a man and as a demon in ways that are I didn't think possible. You are my soul. I am overjoyed that you are carrying our son, I love him also and know that he could never have a better more loving person as a mother.

I hope you won't regret what it is I feel I have to do for both you and our child. I know this is the right thing to do. I am so sorry about any pain my actions may have caused you in the past or now. You are a bright beautiful woman who has her whole life a head of you. I can see you attending colleges and making a wonderful life for yourself and our child.

You deserve everything, I have nothing to offer you, only your freedom from me. I know how much Buffy, Xander, Giles, love you. Even the wanker Angel too. They can give you so much more than I ever can offer. I hope some day that you will meet someone and that you can be happy and loved the way that you deserve to be loved.

In my years, I have accumulated a great deal of money; I have authorized a transfer of my Swiss bank account to you. The account has half a million dollars. You and our child should be able to buy a nice home, and you can provide for both of you.

Saber has agreed to watch over you both.

Good by my dearest sweetest love forgive me. I will love you for an eternity.

Love William

Spike's red tears stained the letter. He sealed it in an envelope and sat it by Willow's bedside.

He picked up a discarded tee- shirt and held it to his face and inhaled her lavender and vanilla sent. He moaned in agony, and left dropping the shirt by her bedroom door.

Saber awoke and scampered up onto the nightstand in her rush to get to the closing French doors. Her back paws knocked the letter off the nightstand; the breeze from the closing door sent it fluttering under Willow's bed.

Spike left Sunnydale in his gray Oldsmobile. It was killing him to leave her behind. He knew it was for her own good. He needed not to be a selfish bastard and let her and the babies have the kind of life they deserved. He turned on the radio:

Sarah McLachlan began to sing:

"Hold on, Hold on to yourself

Cause this is going to hurt like hell

Hold on Hold on your self

You know that only time will tell

What is it in me that refuses to believe This isn't easy than the real thing

My love, you know that you're my best friend You know that I'd do anything, for you

My love let nothing come between us

My love for you is strong and true

Am I in heaven here or am I in hell?

At the crossroads I am standing,

Now you're sleeping peaceful

I lie away and pray

That you'll be strong tomorrow

When we see another day

You will praise it.

And like the light that brings a smile across your face

God if your out there won't you hear me I know that we never talked before

Oh God, I'm leaving the women I love

Take her, when she comes to your door

Am I in heaven here or am I in hell

At the crossroads, I am standing

Now you sleep peaceful, I'll lie awake and pray that you'll be strong tomorrow You will see another day.

Now you're sleeping peaceful."

Spike had to pull the car over; he couldn't drive because his tears blurred his eyes.

Buffy, Xander and Giles were at the hospital to pick up Willow at eight a.m.

Willow was eating breakfast and gave them a big smile. " Hey guys, Where's Spike?"

" Isn't he here with you?" Buffy asked.

" No I haven't seen him." Buffy said, " Last night he asked Giles to take you home, He said he was going to get things ready for you, maybe a romantic surprise?"

Willow smiles hopefully.

Buffy walked towards Willow, and handed her a bag with clean clothes. " I grabbed these things from my closet I thought you might want to wear something clean home."

" Guys, why don't you find a doc, so we can spring her from this joint, eh .. I'll help Willow dress." Buffy ordered.

Willow pulled out a short black skirt and a low cut blouse with a gauze overlay.

" Buffy, I can't wear this!" she said in panic.

" Come on Will you were always a size smaller than me in pants, so now even though you're not showing.. I'm sure it will fit great. and the top well your breast do look a bit bigger Will got admit so .. show off while you can girl."

" Buffy, I've been stuck in 1869 for about 5 months, I've been wearing long skirts.. to go to this.

" I bettcha Spike would like to see the sexier side of Will." Buffy teased.

"Give me the skirt" Willow said blushing.

Willow and Buffy came out of the hospital room fifteen minutes later.

Xander, stared at his best bud and managed to stutter, " New look, gotta say looks good on you"

Giles also noted Willow's long bare legs, low cut blouse which was showing a consider amount of Willow cleavage.

" I'll get the wheelchair and your release papers." Giles offered.

The gang followed Willow into the house.

" Spike" "Spike" Willow called looking around downstairs.

" Maybe, he waiting for you upstairs Will." Buffy winked slyly.

" Well she just got out of the hospital so he better give it a rest" Xander snapped.

" I'll be right back, Guy's help yourself to some soda's" Willow said scampering up the stairs.

Willow opened her door and smelled an unpleasant but familiar smell. " Saber" she chided as the cat scampered over and curled around her legs. Willow spied Saber's welcome home present next to a pair of her favorite sandals.

Willow returned downstairs, " No sign of him." " I wonder where he could be?"

" Don't worry Will the undead keep popping up again and again on the hellmouth." Xander cracked.

" Guy's you don't think he an Angel got in a fight or something.. or Aaron.. or." Willow babbled in concern.

" Calm down Will, I'm sure he's fine" Buffy assured her friend.

" Maybe, Angel know where he is.. Can we go over to the mansion? " Willow asked.

" Willow I'm sure Spike is fine, he's very good at taking care of himself. Why don't you drop me off at the library and take my car." Giles offered.

Willow hugged Giles, " Thanks"

Xander, Willow, and Buffy knocked on the mansion door. " Count Deadboy probably just went to bed"

joked Xander. Willow smacked him playfully.

A shirtless, Angel opened the door. " Willow" he said his eyes noting her overabundant cleavage.

"Come in " he moved away from the door and invited them all in."

" It good to see you.. looking so.. well" Angel commented.

" Have you seen Spike?" Willow blurted out.

" No" Angel looked puzzled, " Why?"

" It seems Blondie's taken a powder." Xander said.

" Xander" Buffy smacked him hard in the solar plexus.

"Oofh" " That hurt" he whispered.

" I think something bad happened to him. Why isn't he here with me?" Willow spoke aloud.

" I'm sure he's fine, when I saw him last night he was so upset about you Willow," Angel explained touching her shoulder.

Angel got a sick feeling.

" Willow, I know how much Spike loves you, you should have seen him last night... I think he just needed a little time to sort things out." Angel said softly.

" Sort what things out?" she asked feeling frightened.

" Uhm.." Angel didn't know what to say he looked at Buffy her eye downcast and a smiling Xander.

" Yeah, he needs space... I know he just needs to get used to the idea that I'm having a baby and he's worried he going to be stuck with us.... cramping his style... and I'm going to blow up like an elephant and my breasts are going to start to sag ... and he's run back to his beautiful Druscilla." Willow ranted and started to cry.

" Hey, Hey, that is so not true... You are more gorgeous than ever and Spike loves you" Angel said pulling Willow into his embrace.

Buffy at that moment knew she should feel bad for her best friends but she couldn't help feel a bit jealous as her boyfriend was gushing about how gorgeous Willow was and holding her in his arms.

Xander suddenly felt bad.

Angel promised that he would look for Spike. He reassured Willow that Spike would be back soon, and that she wasn't to worry.

Willow told him not to bother. Inside she felt crushed rejected and just plain foolish for really believing that he loved her enough to stick by her.

Everyone expected Willow to fall to pieces. She commented that she didn't need him that she was actually better off without him complicating her life.

Willow put on her resolve face and insisted despite Xander's and Buffy's resolve to return her home to rest, she demanded to go to the library to help with research.

Giles was surprised to see the Willow at the library.

" I'd didn't expect to see you here?" " Don't you think you should be home resting?"

Too late, Giles saw Buffy and Xander give him the ' Willow's in a bad mood, don't cross her' look.

" I may be pregnant, but I'm not in invalid, further more I've wasted enough time over some fickle blood sucking demon." Has everyone forgot that we're to graduate in two short weeks and that the Mayor's assenation is still in the works." She chided.

Giles was a bit taken aback by his young charge's attitude. and hurt. I take it they didn't find Spike. Where the hell is he?

" Yes, of course... your right... lets get to work." Giles stuttered.

Since it was such a lovely day, Buffy wanted to train outside. Giles and Buffy went to the Sunnydale Park to workout. Xander knew his best friend was hurting and he felt responsible. Xander just wanted his old friend back; he wanted things back to the way they were before. He was reeling over how much his friend /his very life had changed in less that a week. First, he had thought Willow was involved with Giles, then he had witnessed his friend ... well getting fucked...by the demon Spike... things went from bad to worse when he found out Willow's witchcraft had enabled her to time travel and she was involved with William/Spike in 1869.

That some psycho warlock was trying to suck Willow soul. That she was in love with a demon and was going to have a baby. Xander still couldn't comprehend half of it. Last night he was so afraid that he had lost his best friend for good, as she had nearly died, by some earlier version of Spike.

Xander knew that although Willow had been away from Sunnydale for only two days, she had lived almost five months in another century. Willow looked different... she was well... more womanly, and she acted different too. She seemed stronger, more driven, and more assertive. He thought her being alone without her friends and family had made her more self-reliant. He looked at her hunched over her computer terminal. to have a baby. >

She going to need all of our support now that Spike has apparently left her high and dry. ... could he.. . >

Xander once again recalled his berating Spike at the hospital, confronting the vamp about his feeling for Willow and begging Spike to leave Willow.

Xander noticed it was almost 12:30 and his stomach was growling.

"Hey Will's how's about I go out and get us some lunch? " " You're eating for two now." Xander teased.

Willow looked up, " Yeah whatever" and went back to her research.

Xander left for the Deli. A few minutes later, Willow felt hands close over her eyes. She smiled

And cried, " Spike".. " I knew.."

Her words were cut off as she heard Oz's voice: " Hey baby.. it's me.. I'know I've been out of town on a gig for a week.. but calling me Spike... ouch.."

Willow scolded herself mentally <How could I just push my boyfriend out of my mind like that? Cause you fell in love.. with someone else stupid.>

" Oh Oz," Willow cried. Oz kissed her softly on the lips. " New look Will, I don't think I'm going to be able to leave you again cause some guy will steal you away." He teased.

"Oh Oz, we.. got to talk.." Willow felt horribly guilty, and sad she new this was going to hurt her friend.

Xander barreled into the library, not seeing Oz next to Willow. " I was't sure what kind of soda to get you Will, ... I got you sparkling water .. That's got to be good for the baby.." he uttered as his eyes caught sight of Willow's pale face and Oz's red hair.

" Hey Xander," Oz replied nonchalantly. " Can you pause and rewind.. I thought I heard you say something about Willow and baby in the same sentence."

" Uh.. Um..." Xander wanted the hellmouth to open up and swallow him hole. He grimaced.

Oz took in Willow's still form and Xander's facial contortions. He shot up out of the chair.

" You cheating Bitch... I knew it... I just knew it... when were you going to tell me he got you knocked up." Tears streamed down Willow's cheeks, she felt ashamed and angry.

" Hey, man... it's not what you think" Xander replied Oz moved toward Xander, he wanted to kill him. " You've been fucking behind my back AGAIN!" " YOU TELL ME IT'S NOT WHAT I THINK!" Xander stepped back from Oz's rage. Oz kept coming at Xander he started pummeling him with his fists.

Willow rose from her chair so fast it tipped over backwards. " NO.. NO.. Stop it.." she cried, moving across the room.

Buffy and Giles heard the shouting and Willow's sobs as they were walking down the corridor. They broke into a run.

Buffy managed to pull Oz off a dazed Xander. Xander his face bloody said, "It's not my baby either.. you fool."

Oz's eyes narrowed and he looked at Willow with disgust, " I didn't know my girlfriend was a whore1."

Willow slapped Oz across the face, everything seemed in slow motion as she heard the sound reverberate and echo. Things started to go black.

Xander reached out and managed to catch Willow before she hit the floor.

" Great, now look what you've done." He accused Oz.

" Me.. Me.." "I'm out of here." He replied storming out the door in shock.

Willow woke to see Buffy, Giles and Xander peering into her face.

" What happened?"

" You fainted" " You're still weak from your ordeal and all this emotional distress is not good." Giles lectured.

" Come, we're taking you home."

Spike had returned to Vegas. By the time he hit the strip he had told himself that he was just infatuated with the silly siren and that she was going to be better off with her cartoon friends. He entered a casino and began to gamble and drink heavily.

After seven hours he had won only one thousand bucks and was so inebriated he was close to passing out. He knew he needed to get upstairs to his suite. As he was crossing the hotel lobby, he caught a display in the hotel gift shop.

He noticed a black and white stuffed penguin. He staggered into the shop and asked the clerk to purchase the penguin. "It's for my son" he slurred and promptly passed out.

Xander, Giles and Buffy brought Willow home. Willow couldn't believe how bad she felt. She retired to her room and cried herself to sleep. Xander stayed behind to keep an eye on Willow. His lips was killing him and he was going to have a nasty shiner complements of Oz.

Buffy decided she was going to find Oz and try to explain. She knew he would be hurt and that Willow really should be the one to tell him but Willow was in enough pain without having to admit to her old boyfriend that the man she fell in love with left her pregnant and alone. Buffy knew once Oz calmed down he would be empathetic to Willow's situation.Xander checked in on Willow's sleeping form to see the cat Saber curled against her side. As he was walking away he heard Willow cry out Spike's name. He quickly entered the room and Willow was crying out in her sleep.

Xander went to the bed and tried to awaken Willow from her bad dream. Willow regained consciousness and felt the weight of the world on her heart. Xander hugged her as she cried gut wrenching sobs. all else has left me and my old boyfriend hates me and my parents are going to kill me>

Spike awoke and was immediately run over by a truck. " Bloody, hell, what.." He awoke in his bed in his suite. He was clutching a stuffed penguin. Bits and pieces of the most recent events came flooding back. Then he felt a stake enter his heart as he thought about Willow, his beautiful, sweet Willow and he felt the stake change him to dust. He lay back upon the bed unable to move.

Angel found no sign of Spike in Sunnydale. Although he wasn't surprised that Spike had needed to take some time out, he was suprised that his childe had apparently left Sunnydale and Willow. That is just not like him. Spike is crazy about her why would he leave her. Angel answered his own question. <He left her because he loves her so much. He wants her and the baby to have a happy life and not be tied down with a vampire. Angel himself had come to the same conclusion about Buffy. He had decoded to leave at the end of the summer, after graduation, after the ascension. > Angel shook his head; they made a fine pair of sorry assed demons struck down by love from two remarkable women.

Willow wiped her nose and face after her crying jag. She thanked Xander and asked him to leave to give her some time alone to think. Xander agreed only after Willow threaten to turn him into a rat.

Willow forced herself to eat dinner. She turned things over in her mind. She need to stop being such a crybaby and make some plans. She was responsible for a child now. This reinforced her motivation to fight evil to make the world a safer place. She decided that once her parents came back she would move out and get her own place. Willow also thought about what changes the Scooby gang would undergo as graduation approached. She reasoned that the high school library was going to be off limits to them. How could they all rationalize hanging out there once they graduated? Buffy, Xander and herself were to go to Sunnydale University this fall. Willow knew she would still go to college but would have to skip the fall semester since the baby was due. She could start in the spring. She was more motivate than ever knowing she was bring a new life into the world to keep it safe from evil. She was going to be a part. What she needed was a place big enough for her to live, and a place for the gang to use as home base to hang out and work from. Willow had an idea.

Buffy had caught up with Oz and once he calmed down she explained the whole sordid affair about Willow's spell casting, living in 1869, her falling in love, Aaron the warlock, Spike's leaving.

Oz wasn't feeling any better now that he heard all the details but did feel a bit remorseful for calling Willow names and beating the crap out of Xander. Oz knew he would see Willow to let her know how sorry he was about everything. He needed closure with her. This stuff happening just helped him decide that he was going on the road with the band after graduation. He needed to put Willow and Sunnydale behind him.

Angel was surprised to see Willow at his door alone. " It's after dark you shouldn't be out alone." He said worriedly

Willow flashed her stake and squirt gun filled with holy water. "Can we talk?"

Angel heard out Willow's plan and he saw the merit in it. The more they talked the more sense it made. He was leaving at the end of summer anyway.

Why not.

Angel accompanied Willow back to the library to talk to Giles and Buffy.

Giles was excited to see them he shared his latest prophecy, which gave good clues as to how to defeat the mayor.

They called Xander and finalized their plans to defeat him. During a snack break Willow piped out with her and Angel's plan for the future.

" Uh Oh," Buffy said, "this sound kinda scary the future as in after graduation."

Willow, smiled and reported that Angel had sold her the mansion, well she only paid ten dollars for it since it needed a lot of work... but that she was going to move in.

" What?" Xander, Buffy and Giles cried in puzzlement.

" Guys, have you given any thought to where we will meet and hang out to work once we graduate? The university library or anywhere on campus for that matter is out. It will be crawling with student." She said.

" No, I really hadn't thought that far ahead with everything going on.." Giles stammered.

"The mansion is large enough for me, and the baby, and it has a huge library, that Giles could keep his books in; and we could make an office for you Giles, and we have plenty of meeting space... and space for Buffy to work out and extra bedroom in case you wanted to stay over... and it will be easy for me to work at home and have you guys around to help watch him.. and stuff" Willow babbled excitedly.

"Yes, that does seem like a sound idea." Giles said smiling.

"What about Deadboy?' " You're not going to be living with him are you?' Xander asked testily.

" Of course Angel can stay until he moves to LA."

Spike's days blurred one into another. He gambled to pass the time, he felt so depressed most of the time he didn't even care to drink, cared even less about feeding, although he did just enough to keep going, he cared even less about shagging. Ever time he saw a red head he thought of his Willow and his heart soared for a second then crashed and burst as if it were dipped into liquid nitrogen.

The Scooby gang fought together and brought down the mayor's evil ascension. He was destroyed once and for all. Oz said his good-byes to his old friends.

Willow gave the valedictorian speech at graduation. She told her parents that night about the baby. They were very upset and wanted to know who the baby's father was and why he wasn't standing by their daughter. Willow broke down and told them, it was just better this way, trying so hard to make herself believe it. Her parents were even more upset when she told them she was moving into the mansion.

The gang had cleaned the mansion and made it more hospitable than before. Saber enjoyed the lard yard and court yard. Buff was taking a well deserved day off and Giles was working with Willow on controlling her ever buergoning wiccan skills.

Giles had been in lecture mode for over ten minutes, and Willow's mind drifted.

"Giles" she interuped; "Would you be my labor coach?" She asked shyly.

"What?" his mouth hung open in a little O.

"Never mind," she said seeing the surprised look on his face.

"Willow, ....I'm flattered and honored you would ask me." Giles eyes teared up in spit of himself. He approached Willow and took her hand. " Nothing would make me happier." He smiled.

Willow hugged him, " Thanks Giles, you're such a good and patient teacher and you're so responsible and dependable, there is no one else I want to be with me more." She said tears in her eyes.

That evening over a spagetti dinner Wilow told the rest of the gang the good news about Giles being her coach. Everyone thought it was a good idea and congradulated them both. As Willow went into the kitchen to clean up,

Xander, Angel, Buffy and Giles spoke excitedly about planning a baby shower for Willow.

Buffy made some comment about what an asshole Spike had turned out to be, "It's been six weeks since he left, and not even a call or letter." Willow's showing and everybody in town is whispering about which of you three is the babies father.."Buffy griped waving her hand." Willow just tunes it out and keeps plugging along like everything is dandy. Have you ever caught the look on her face when she doesn't know were looking at her?"

Angel, admitted that Willow was putting up a good front but that late at night he heard her crying.

Xander looked down and swallowed feeling guilty again. " I'm going to find his sorry dead ass and drag him back here." Xander said softly.

"What?" Buffy said laughing," You who hate him are going to bring 'SPIKE' back here.

"Are you on drugs?" she laughed.

"I mean it, I've seen the look on her face. I hear what people are saying behind her back. I'm going to find him and tell him I was wrong." He blurted.

"Tell him you were wrong about what?" Giles asked.

"Ah. Oh." " I.. that night Willow almost died, I was so angry and scared I confronted him and asked him if her really?" He said he did and would do anything for her. " I sad if you loved her you would let her go, let her have a better life without him.. I begged him to prove he loved her by leaving.. that we could all take care of her and the baby."

Xander's guilt had been eating at him for several weeks now. He saw how hard Willow was working pretending everything was all right, but Buffy was right she had such sadness in her eyes. Xander decided he was going to find the missing demon and bring him back to Sunnydale. If only Buffy hadn't mocked him, then he wouldn't have blurted out about him being the one to challenge Spike's love for Willow. Xander had begged him to leave Willow alone.

Buffy was pissed. " I can't believe you did that!"

"What did Xander do now?" Willow asked entering the room with ice cream.

"He stuck his nose in places it didn't belong." Buffy replied angrily.

Xander's guilt started to burn even brighter. What he hadn't admitted to anyone was that several weeks ago when he was helping Willow move into the mansion he found a letter under her bed. Xander opened it innocently enough thinking it was some note or forgotten card and he was shocked to find a good-by letter from Spike. At the time Xander thought it was for the best, he debated showing the letter to Willow, but thought it would just reopen wounds she was desperately time to heal. So Xander had been carrying around the damn letter in his wallet.

" Xander wouldn't be Xander if he didn't stick his nose in everybody's business" Willow said teasingly, as she began to scoop out ice cream.

"Well, he practically drove..."

Xander interrupted Buffy's tirade " Willow it's my fault Spike left you."

"What?" Willow said chocolate ice cream running down her arm.

"The night you came back and almost died, I said if he loved you he would leave you.. That he couldn't give you the kind of life you deserved.. That we could all help you and watch out for you." Xander explained

" Oh" Willow said sitting down at an empty chair at the table, she placed her chocolate cover hand on her protruding abdomen.

"Spike left me. He may have rationalized some sort of noble reason, but I think it's just a crappy, sorry excuse, it doesn't change the fact that he left, no nothing." She sighed.

"Well actually when I was helping you move, I found a letter than had fallen under your bed. I didn't know what it was an I started to read it. and it was from him." Xander said, taking the bloodstained letter out of his wallet. " I didn't know if I should give it to you are not."

" I'm going to kill you Xander" Buffy shouted.Willow sat still in the chair. " I don't want to see it. I... he left me.. no excuse is acceptable he said he loved me and he left... I don't want to hear or read about any more lies. start screaming or break into a million pieces. I can't cry anymore. I won't I have a life to make for my son.>

"So who wants ice cream?" Willow repeated standing up.

"I'm going to look for him Willow. I'll find him I promise."

"Xander did you just hear me. I don't care, if he were to come crawling back on his hands and knees, I wouldn't give him the time of day" she said her resolve face in place.

"Will, you don't mean that." Buffy said.

"Yeah, I do. Giles, ice cream?"

"No.. No thank you." He was a bit stunned by the turn of events.

"I'm sorry Will if .. if I caused you any hurt.." he replied with remorse.

" Xander sometimes you're the biggest ass in the world, and you usually don't say the right thing, but you've always stood by me no matter what. That's what counts." Willow answered.

" Your not mad?" he asked amazed.

" No, I'm sick of feeling mad.. I'm sick of feeling hurt and broken."

" I'm just going to live my life.

Once again Giles was stunned by the young women. me. She has shown such strength and determination, she is truly amazing.. God what bloody fool he was to have left her.

Angel had taken in the scene, shaking his head. your ass back here before Willow really does get on with her life and leaves you to bite the dust.>

Xander knew Willow well enough to know that for all her determination and bravado she was hurting big time and that he had helped cause a great deal of it.

After the ice cream Willow excused herself, saying she was tired and would see them all tomorrow. Xander announced, "I'm going to find him, I don't care what she says."

"You couldn't find a pimple on you ass Xander," Buffy added testily.

"Hey," Xander cried.

"Buffy's right." Angel commented.

" No comments from you Dead Boy." Xander groused

" I'll be hard to find Spike if he doesn't want to be found."

" I'll go look for him." Angel offered.

" You" Buffy said.

" I know him pretty well" Xander you be sucked dry with twelve hours snooping around in Spike's haunts."

"I think we should all respect Willow's wishes" Giles offered.

" I hate to say this Giles, but for once I agree with Xander, Spike should be here so he and Willow can at least work this out one way or another.

Willow doubts Spike's feeling for her. I've never seen him love anybody or care about anybody the way he does Willow, not even Dru. Even if they don't get back together, Willow needs to know how much he loves her. Spike is a selfish bastard; this vanishing act is out of character for him. He and Dru were attached at the hip. He left because he really believes Willow can have a better life without him. He's probably right, but they at least need the chance to work this out together."

"I'll leave at dusk tomorrow." Angel said.

" I'll be going with you." Xander said matter of factly.

" No, I'll be able to fnd him quicker without you." Angel stated.

" Man I'm going.. I'm not too happy thinking about spending time cooped up with you in a car, but I need to do this for Willow." Xander explained.

"Well, if you hadn't tried to help Willow to begin with we wouldn't be in this mess. Buffy scolded.

Angel had rented a black Chrysler Le Baron, with dark tinted windows (just in case). He pulled up in front of Xander's house. His mouth dropped open at all the stuff the kid was carrying. He had a backpack, a huge grocery bag, (are those Twinkies) and a suitcase side cassette tape holder. Angel shook his head got out of the car and opened the trunk. examined.>

" Hey Dead Boy, are we ready to hunt down the blond fang?"

" Look Xander, I don't want the car messed up O.K." Angel said pointing at the large bag of food.

" You didn't need to bring stuff for the whole trip, we're going to be stopping." Angel added.

" Man, this stuff is just for tonight." Xander explained.

Angel rolled his eyes, and got into the car.

" So where are we headed?" Xander asked rubbing his hands together.

" Mexico" Angel replied. " Every time Spike and Dru had a falling out he would hit the tequila."

" There is this place just south of Baja, a real dive called Pedro's Pub. Spike always got a kick out of the name."

Spike tipped back another tequila shooter. pathetic wimpy vampire anymore, no. Not me. Tonight I'm going to shag me a hot showgirl... Yes... one with huge silicon breasts. Yep.>

He tipped another tequila shooter and watched the floor show.

Giles was feeling a bit prickly, as both Angel and Xander disregarded his advice about letting things alone. The Vamp and the boy would kill each other making Willow even unhappy. Willow is young and resilient she will get over her heartbreak, and find someone who really loves and cherishes her and her son. No need to complicate matters with Spike.

Giles returned from the kitchen to see Willow asleep her head next to the keyboard. His heart wrenched as he looked at the sleeping girl. She looks like a Goddess from a Rodan sculpture. Giles approached the sleeping beauty and picked her up into his arms. Willow shifted into his embrace and sighed softly against his neck.

Giles felt his body respond. The truth if Giles was willing to admit it to himself was that his love and affection were growing for this woman. In reality his own biological clock was ticking ever more loudly and Willow's allowing him to be a part of her pregnancy affected him deeply.

Giles placed Willow gently on her bed and covered her. Willow murmured "William" half-asleep.

Giles caressed her soft cheek. Giles moved down the hall to Angel's room. He decided he was going to stay and watch over Willow while Angel was away. That's what he was a watcher.

The buxom brunette was all over him in the elevator. Spike felt his bodies respond for the first time in almost two months. He returned her kisses and rubbed his hands over her artificial breasts.

"Willow" he murmured.

"My name's Matty" she said playfully biting his earlobe.

"I'll call you whatever you want, Pet"

Spike unlocked his suite and the showgirl was tearing at his shirt.

Spike flashed back to his Willow, tearing at his shirt and him taking her on the library table. He groaned and closed his eyes tighter and picked up this women and moved them over so he could set her on the dresser. She was grabbing his ass and trying to pull him closer to her. Spike opened his eyes and peered into the mirror attached to the dresser behind the women. He saw Willow's naked reflection beckoning him with her finger, like she had in the cottage. Spike whirled around feeling guilty and suddenly more aroused than ever.

"Hey" the showgirl whined, " where you going?"

The room was empty. He turned around and his erection deflated like a balloon as he looked at this brunette. broken but now my dick broken too.>

"I'm sorry Pet, this wasn't such a good idea.."

"What she pouted, moving off the dresser and running her hands over his naked chest.

Spike pulled her hands away and steered her towards the door. " I've just got a killer migraine headache luv, maybe next time." He handed her a hundred-dollar game chip " Play a round for me."

"Can you pull over?" Xander asked

"What for?" Angel asked cursing himself for the tenth time that he was dumb enough to let Xander tag along.

"I' goat take a piss, if you don't mind." Xander replied snottily.

"Well, if you hadn't drank that six pack of soda." Angel grumbled. Angel moved his foot to the brake to slow down and his foot collided with an empty soda can, he moved it out of the way and felt cellophane stick to the bottom of his shoe.

Angel got out of the car to stretch his legs. He sensed a small life form in the bushes. He was feeling mighty frustrated and tense; a little fresh blood could take the edge off he thought. Angel tore off like transformed into the feral creature he was and began to chase the rabbit.

"Hey, where are you going?" Xander called after Angels retreating form, stampeding through the bushes.

Xander thought munching on another Twinkie as he opened another Pepsi it sprayed and foamed over the leather

interior of the driver's seat. the seat. > He sucked at the foaming can. Angel returned several minutes later and climbed in to the car.

"Fuck, What the hell did you do, Piss on my seat?" Angel shouted turning to Xander his game face glaring. Xander noted not only was Angel annoyed in full game face but also that Angel had a big blob of blood on the end of his nose. He looked so ridiculous, all grrr and he had blood on his nose. Xander couldn't help himself he started to laugh.

Angel growled and lunged across the enclosed space of the car and grabbed Xander by the scruff of the neck. < I'll teach him to mock me. >

Xander squealed and in his frenzy to escape Angel's grasp, upended the Pepsi and it landed in Angel's lap.Angel jumped back as the cold soda soaked his privates and swore, " Fuck! Fuck! do you how hard it is to clean leather, your dead."Xander knew that he had pushed the vamp too far and as soon as Angel let him go he opened the door and in his hurry to get out of the car tripped over another loose soda can falling forward, catching his head on the corner of the open door. Xander saw stars and ended up kissing dirt. It was know Angel's turn to laugh at Xander's clumsiness. < I won't have to kill him, he'll manage that all by himself.

Xander stood and brushed himself, "Look deadboy, you got blood on your nose, and I most certainly didn't piss on the seat. Must be you brushed up against something when you were playing Tarzan the blood sucking vampire."

Angel wiped the soda off the front of his pants and the blood of his nose." Just get in the car, I want to find Spike before I die of old age." Angel and Xander both brooded silently for the next hundred miles.

Spike took to the strip in search of food. He feed off four different people, but he took no pleasure in it. His mind keeps thinking about Willow.

<I'm a pathetic weak willed vampire. Why is it I get involved with women and then obsessive over them. Maybe I need to see a therapist or talk to Oprah or something. I wonder what she's doing right now. Does she miss me? I hope she's feeling all right. What if Angel is trying to take advantage of her? She too kind hearted. He'll try and woo her with his soulful cryptic guy routine... wanker... or Scrappy Doo.. He hump her leg if she let him... what about the watcher... all proper and goody two shoes in that Duddly Do Right way, thats the kind of guy you really have to watch out for. > Spike in his deep thoughts about Willow practically stepped in front of a moving taxi. He was brought back to the present by the sound of the blaring horn and the driver shouting, " Get a life,"

< I'm worse than pathetic, shit.>

Giles awoke to the sound of glass crashing. He jumped out of bed and opened the bedroom door. He felt cold air and saw in the dim light a funnel of debris swirling. < What in the world> He needed to get to Willow's room. He covered his head and hugged the wall and dodged most of the flying items. Something sharp scraped his cheek and he felt a hot stinging sensation.

He yanked open Willow's door and turned on the light. He blinked and saw her lying in bed, the covers on the floor and her face bathed in sweat. She was speaking in Gaelic and it sounded like she was repeated the same phrase over and over. Giles's heart was in his throat; < She possessed. > He moved to her bedside and tried to wake her. Her body was ice cold. He shook her and called her name, "Willow, wake up." Giles shook her shoulders and touched her face. Willow opened her eyes and called out "Daire."

As Willow opened her eyes Giles heard a loud crash as the debris flying about outside the room crashed to the floor. " Willow, can you hear me? " Giles asked softly. Willow blinked sleepily, " Giles, what's the matter?" Willow felt cold, she sat up slowly and noticed Giles was pale as a ghost and wearing only a pair of boxers. He had a cut upon his cheek that was bleeding heavily. "What is it?"she asked afraid.

"Willow, what do you remember?" Giles asked.

"Nothing.... Giles your bleeding... what's happening?" she asked her voice filled with concern.

"You were having some kind of dream or trance" he explained.

"What was that crashing noise I heard did someone break in?" she asked her eyes darting to the open bedroom door.

"No, I'm not sure exactly what happened. Perhaps some type of poltergeist activities" he theorized.

"We've got to get you cleaned up," Willow said moving her legs to the floor.

Giles noticed that Willow must have woken after he had put her to bed because she was wearing a nightshirt. A nightshirt made even shorter due to her bodies changes with her pregnancy. The nightshirt was pulled taunt over Willow's every increasing breasts and abdomen.

Giles swallowed hard as took in Willow's long legs and backside so nicely outlined by the tight nightshirt, as she picked up her robe from a chair and slipped it on.

"Come on Giles, let's get you cleaned up and clean up the mess."

Giles sat stiffly on her bed very aware of another part of his anatomy that was very stiff. . < God if I move, it could slip out or at the very least she might notice and be more horrified that I already am. >

"Um Willow, I think you should come back to bed... I mean... well. .. stay here and I'll go and check things out and get a band aid and come back.." he stammered blushing

"Giles.. I think.."

"Please Willow," he said harshly.

"Sure" she walked back to the bed and sat down. Giles jumped up and practically bolted from the room. In his hurry, he forgot he was barefoot and stepped on some of the sharp debris that had fallen in the hallway.

"Judas Priest " he swore.

"Are you OK, " Willow called from her room.

"Yes, Yes, stubbed my toes. No problem." Giles limped down to his bedroom.

He pulled on his pants and chatisized himself for his adolescent behavior. He picked out a piece of glass from his foot and hobbled to the bathroom and tended to his injuries. A few minutes later he went back to check on Willow, she was fast asleep with the light still on. Giles collected a broom and dustpan and cleaned up the mess. He was very concerned what had really occurred. With Willow's time travel, her pregnancy and Wiccian powers, and last but not least this being the hell mouth any and all of these factors may have been the cause of her 'trance' 'possession'. Giles went to the mansion's library and wrote down the Gaelic phrase Willow spoke. He hadn't a clue as to what the words meant. He wished Angel was here, he would probably recognize the language. Giles went looking for a text that might help him translate. Just before sunrise Giles felt confident in his translation, however, the words themselves made no sense:

Slide back to feed the dragon with the moon.

The word ' Daire' appeared to be a name of someone. Was Aaron somehow behind this? He wished again that Xander and Angel were here. Willow could be in danger.

Angel and Xander had reached Pedro's Pub around 2:30 a.m.

"Why don't you wait in the car Xander." Angel said.

"I didn't come all this way to wait in the car." Xander retorted.

"Look this place, is very seedy and dangerous.. your out of you league." Angel explained.

"I can handle myself" Xander replied defensively.

"Look just stick near me and for both our sakes keep your mouth shut." Angel dictated.

Angel, walked towards the dimly lit bar. Xander made a face and gave him the finger behind his back.

The bar smelled of cigar smoke and unwashed bodies. Angel took a seat near at a table near the door.Xander walked in and stood over Angel. " Hey.. I don't see the Blond fang.. Don't you think we should ask.." Xander suggested.

"No sit down so I can scope this place out." Angel scowled.

"I'm getting a drink" Xander stated and headed for the bar.Angel rolled his eyes.Xander, took in the odd assortment of men ringing the bar. Several looked as old a mummies, One guy had no teeth. Two regular looking guy's were talking quitly. Xander stood next to them at the bar. " Barkeep how's bout a tequila?" The bartender poured the shot and took xander's money/ Xander downed the drink and puffed out his cheast in a macho peackock way. The two men closeest to Xander moved closer. One stood on either side of him.

"Hey, gringo, what you doing here?"

"Well actually, I'm looking for a... < not a friend> guy.. yeah.. a blond guy.. short hair so tall.. likes leather.>

"Your not too particular are you,?" The man to Xander's right laughed. The man to his left slipped his hand down and grabbed Xander's ass. " I bet we can help you forget all about blondie."

"Hey Xander's squealed.."

" Hands off.." Angel growled, shoving the man up against the bar. He grasped Xander's arm and pulled him towards him. Angel grabbed Xander's face between his hand and gave him a big kiss. Xander's eyes flew open and he opened his mouth to protest, and Angel thrust his tongue in his mouth before pulling away. Xander just stood there in shock. He had never been kissed like that before, he wasn't sure if he felt aroused or if he was going to vomit. His brain tried to process this.

"This one's mine and so is the blond!" " Have you seen him lately." Angel growled.

"No both men replied" " Who should we say is looking if we see him?"

"Tell him his daddy is angry and wants him to come home." Angel replied.Xander, thought vomit and pushed past Angel and out the door. <What the Fuck was that about.?>

<That's it .. I'm getting away from that blood sucking tongue kissing freak>

He started walking.

Angel came out of the bar and started the car and noted Xander walking up ahead. Angel hit the power button on the window, "I told you to sit down and be quiet.. I told you you were out of your league.." he reprimanded. " Those guys were hustler who worked the bar, they took you for a newbie, and wanted a cut of your action. Those guys understand and respond to domination and power."Angel explained.

Xander kept walking ignoring the vamp.

"Come on your not freaked out about that dominance display are you Xander,?" Angel teased

"Don't worry Xander, I didn't get a happy, my soul is still safe." He laughed.

"Come on get in the car. It's almost sunrise.. I'd like to find a place to hole up for a while."

"Fuck you!" Xander screamed.

"No thank's I'm not really interested, your such a bad kisser." Angel laughed. < I know what it takes to get under his skin.> " What's matter wasn't it good for you?"

Xander kept walking. "What you going to walk back to Sunnydale.. I told you this wouldn't be easy.. That it was tough... I guess you'll go back to Willow tail between your legs." Angel stated.

Xander walked to the car and got in. Xander was plotting how he would get back at this wise assed vamp.

Willow saw Giles asleep in an armchair by the fireplace, three books in his lap. <God his neck is going to be killing him> She approached him and noted the long gash that adorned his right cheek. She called his name softly, " Giles"

He jumped slightly and one of the books slipped off his lap and thudded loudly upon the floor.

"Willow" he murmured

"Giles, you really shouldn't sleep in the chair, it's bad for your neck she lectured." " Would you like some tea?" She asked.

Giles groaned as his neck protested. " Yes, please"

Willow handed a cup to Giles and sat down on the hearth facing him.

"What happened last night Giles?" she asked.

"I'm not really sure." " Is there anything you remember dreaming about?"

Willow thought, and looked down. " Well, I often dream about Will.. Spi.. him. I think I was dreaming about him last night, except you know how strange dreams can be.. Cause the man in my dream didn't look like William or Spike but I knew it was him... he had the same eyes.. and you were there too but you didn't look like you either but yet it was you.." she babbled " I'm sorry.. I'm not much help."

"No actually, that's not uncommon for people to be represented by different forms and people in our dreams. " Do you remember anything else?" Giles asked.

"Aaron was in it he was ... he was trying to kill William/Spike." She reported.

"I see" Giles looked at Willow; " Slide back to feed the dragon with the moon" Giles said to gage any reaction in Willow to those words.

"Life has no friend: her converts late or soon

Slide back to feed the dragon with the moon" she repeated.

The teacups shattered in both Giles and Willow's hand.

Both gasped startled by the shattered porcelain and the hot tea.

Willow stood staring at Giles, " What does it mean Giles" fear in her voice.

He moved to take her hand. " I don't know but we'll find out."

Angel felt wetness against his neck. He opened his eyes and saw the top of Xander's head against the crook of his shoulder his mouth hanging open and drool running out the corner onto his neck.

He used his other hand to shove Xander's head away from him, "get off" he cried.

"What?" Will?" Xander mumbled he was having an amazing erotic dream about Willow. Xander blinked and the full reality of the situation hit him. <I'm stuck in Mexico with a bisexual vampire, my best friends is pregnant by another, and best off all I'm looking for his sorry ass.>

Spike had returned to his suite close to dawn and fallen into a drunken sleep. He dreamed Willow was standing on a tall rock cliff. He could here her sobs. She was speaking in a language he didn't recognize yet he understood the words.

"Yet in an hour to come, disdainful dust,

You shall be bowed and brought to bed with me.

While the blood roars...."

She stepped off the cliff and plummeted silently. Spike saw her broken bloody bottom at the bottom.

He woke up, bile rose in his throat. He moved off the bed and heaved into a trashcan. He was shaken by the dream it seemed so real.. <I hope she's all right. What if something happened to her? I just need to know she is all right hear her voice.>

Spike called directory assistance and got the number for the Rosenberg residence. A women answered the phone.

" Hello."

"Is Willow there?" He asked more calmly than he felt.

"No, I'm sorry, she doesn't live here anymore." The women answered.

"What" he said in alarm " Where is she? Is she alright?"

"Who is this?" the women asked with suspicion.

<It must be her mother, calm done and find out before she hangs up on you. >

"Uh I'm and old friend of her's and am coming into town.."

"It's you?" her mother accused.

"What? You're the one?"

"One what?" He asked knowing very likely what she was asking.

"Please, I just need to talk to her that's all." Spike pleaded.

"She's moved into an old mansion just outside of town.." Spike dropped the phone and swore the line disconnected. "I'll kill him!"

Spike mimicked in a high falsetto voice; ' I've no future with Buffy.'

"No of course not, cause you wanted to be with MY WIFE and TAKE MY CHILD."

Spike heaved again just thinking about Angel touching his Willow. Spike grabbed up the stuffed penguin and his coat and tore out of the hotel in a rage.

"So where to next?" Xander asked trying to block out the trauma of the previous nights trolling through a half dozen rank, hellish watering holes. After the whole dominance and kissing thing the evening went from bad to worse. The joint they went to after that had a live human death match going on. Xander hadn't seen that much blood and gore since he was a hyena as part of the pack that devoured principal Flutie.

Xander was afraid to say anything and he stuck close to Angel. Not only was he worried about the violence scene, he kept seeing Angel's face twitch out of the corner of his eye. Xander worried that meant Dead Boy was thinking about helping himself to a 'blood light' when one guy's arm got cut off and landed practically on their table. Xander put the kibosh on any idea's Angel may have had about cocktails as he vomited all over Angel's lap. To say that Angel was empathetic was a little bit of an understatement.

He dragged Xander out of the joint by grabbing a handful of his hair. Xander learned several new swear word combinations. Angel ordered Xander to the car to get him a pair of his pants. Angel went round the building and found a hose. Xander returned with the clean clothing and was shocked to see the Vampire's bare ass and plentiful privates. Xander knew he could have lived without that image forever burned into his brain.

The next dive Xander saw a roach as big as a cat. He wanted to jump up on the table and squeal like a girl but knew Angel would kill him for sure.

After leaving the sixth bar, Xander never wanted a shower so much in his whole entire life. They decided to get some sleep and Angel feel asleep immediately, and Xander couldn't get to sleep cause Angel kept growling and snarling in his sleep.

Xander wondered if Angel was dreaming about chasing humans. Thus he was a bit nervous to nod off. Angel woke Xander up by smacking him up side the head. This was Xander's first clue that Angel was not a morning person. Xander sighed and hoped he would live to return to the hellmouth.

Giles and Willow went to Lamaze class. Giles as she had expected was a wonderful coach. Willow was so glad he agreed to help her. After Giles took them out to lunch and then shopping for baby things. Willow laughed as Giles oowed and aahed over the tiny baby clothes. He insisted on buying almost one of everything. They went to the toy store and bought a stuffed Whinny the Pooh Owl. Willow teased Giles that he was just like owl. As they were leaving the mall, Giles and Willow's arms full of packages accidentally ran into Harmony and her Mother.

"Oh hi Willow, Mr. Giles, out shopping for things for your baby?" she cooed.

"I must say Willow, all that time everybody believed you were studying in the library, who would have guessed you two with your combined brain power wouldn't use birth control" She laughed.

Willow's face flamed, and she was about to tell Harmony where to stick it.

Giles, piped up, "actually Willow and I couldn't be happier about the baby, come darling lets get you home, " as he steered Willow away from the offensive girl.

"Giles, I can't believe.. everyone will think.. why." Willow stuttered.

"Willow, I don't care what people think about me, If people believe I'm the father than perhaps the endless speculation will stop and people will move on to talk about something else." Giles smiled offered Willow his arm.

Spike drove like a manic. He had devised over 1000 ways in which he could slowly torture Angel

He was taking Willow and they were going to leave Sunnydale whether she liked it or not. He had thought of 568 ways he could pleasure Willow, after the baby was born of course, and by then he was sure he could come up with at least another 500 ways.

Buffy and Giles trained in the courtyard in the late afternoon. Willow sat outside and watched as she read a parenting magazine.

Buffy left just before dusk to shower and go on patrol.

Willow had asked Giles to help her learn Ta Chi. Giles agreed that it was a good way to meditate and also keep Willow fit throughout her pregnancy.Willow had changed into a pair of cotton shorts and a tee shirt, she caught sight of herself in the mirror and realized she need to buy some maternity clothes fast as she was about to bust out of these things.

"Giles, we should have bought some maternity clothes, God look at me, I'm getting huge"She sighed.

Giles looked and once again he was taken with how much pregnancy agreed with Willow, her usual fair complexion, now always seemed to have a rosy glow. Willow's small lean frame had transformed at five months along to a voluptuous pear shape. Her legs and hips were still slim; her abdomen swelled slightly the size of a basketball. Earlier, Giles had heard Willow complain to Buffy about how often she had to go to the bathroom and how much her breast ached. Buffy teased Willow that her breasts were much more than a handful now.

Giles demonstrated the basic stance and the five basic moves from which all the others were derivatives of. Willow caught on quite quickly with the leg movements and stances but had difficulty incorporating her arm movements.

Giles moved behind Willow to help guide her arm movements.

Spike approached the mansion he looked into the French doors onto the living area. He saw Willow and he felt his cold body fill with warmth. <She was breathtaking. Her skin glowed> Spike was mesmerized by Willow's curves. Her breast looked like ripe melons and her abdomen swelled with his child.

Spike's body responded in a primal way. He noticed the watcher behind Willow guiding her hands in Tai Chi form. She was a Goddess. Willow grabbed Giles hands and placed them on her abdomen. Spike saw both Willow's and Giles face light up with pure joy.

Spike felt his blood run cold, that man had his hands on his wife and his child. Spike in full game face and enraged crashed through the glass on the closed French doors.

Willow screamed, and her first thought was that the Evil Spike had come to feed on her once again. Giles quickly moved in front of Willow and commanded her to flee.

Willow managed to back up only a few feet until her ass hit the large conference table. Spike was growling and had grabbed Giles by the neck. " Willow reached behind her to grab the cross bow and wooden arrow left out

from the earlier training session. Willow lifted it and took aim. She worried that she might hit Giles but knew he would want her to protect herself and the baby. Willow released the wooden arrow from the crossbow and it sailed across the room..

"OWOWWWW" The arrow hit Spike in the ass. " Spike dropped the watcher and turned to face Willow, " Red, You could of damaged something vital, Pet."

Giles picked him self up off the floor.

Giles grabbed Spike by the scuff of the neck and by the protruding arrow and swung him forward towards the marble fireplace.

"Hey..." Spike yelped in pain as his head connected with cold marble. Everything faded to black.Giles turned towards Willow, " Are you alright..." his breath caught in his throat.

Willow was furious, she was heading his way and Giles felt a shiver of fear run down his back.

"That God Damned Bloody Bastard" she shrieked. "Giles get that stake out of his ass, pronto. He'll rue the day he ever messed with me!"

"Willow.. I think...,.. perhaps some chains...first." Giles suggested.

"Giles now!" Giles stuck one foot against Spike's lower back grabbed the wooden stake protruding from Spike's ass with both hands and pulled. The stake came out with a small sucking noise and a loud groan from Spike who was coming round. Willow pushed Giles back and threw holy water onto the open wound.

Spike howled in pain, rolled over onto his undamaged nether cheek. "How dare you come into my house all grrr and scare the living daylights out of me" Willow yelled.

"Get Out! GET OUT... I HATE YOU... YOU SORRY EXCUSE FOR A MAN... YOU PITFUL LYING VAMPIRE."

Spike just stared up at Willow, <She's even beautiful when she's angry> he bit his lip to keep from grinning at her. <She safe and full of fire and brimstone. I love this creature>

Giles touched Willow on the shoulder, " Please calm down Willow your starting to levitate things."

Spike noticed a small funnel of wind swirling around closer to the center of the room and the glass and debris from the broken doorway was getting sucked into the funnel.

"He's right Red, I wouldn't want you to get hurt." Spike said.

Willow let the hurt and rage she had bottled up out, hurling her pain and anger at the source.

"Get hurt... you stupid Ox you abandoned me ...no goodbye.. No see you round... While everybody in the Fucking town is pointing and talking behind my back, about who got me knock up.. My parents practically disowned me.. " Willow felt the tears in her eyes. <I won't give him the satisfaction.> She swallowed, " Get out of my house and never darken my door again... next time I won't miss." She said her voice shaking. She whirled around waved her arms wide about her head and brought the swirling funnel down crashing to the floor and stormed out of the room.

Saber hearing the commotion came to investigate. She saw her master and scampered up purring happily and rubbing against Spike.

"At least someone is happy to see me," he said sadly.Spike stood up on shaky legs. Cor, his ass was still on fire. It's a good thing I heal quickly.

Seeing Willow safe and looking so much more beautiful that he ever could have imagined. < Guess there is something to said for mortality after all; being undead one is stuck with the same look for an eternity>

Willow's angry tirade was a bit unexpected. On his drive here he had imagined all the ways he was going to torture Angel for once again sticking his member in places it didn't belong. <Where was the bloody wanker anyway... and the bloody watcher.. hand on his women too...> Spike looked at Giles venomously.

"How dare you come back here to cause her even more pain." "Get out, you heard her." Get out and if I ever see you again I'll stake you myself." Giles promised.

"Well, lookie here seems as if the watcher's grow a couple, not hiding behind the slayers skirt any more."

"I've come for Willow and it's you who will die, if you think you can stop me."

"I should kill you anyway.. I saw you.. your hands all over her.." Spike had changed back into his game face and his jealous rage percolated once again. Giles sensibly backed up. " We were working out and she felt the baby move and wanted me to feel it too." Giles explained.

"It was amazing." Giles couldn't help but smile like a fool.

"You felt my baby moving round?" Spike asked his human face returning with a goofy grin.

Both men stood grinning for a moment thinking about the life Willow carried.

They both realized they should be angry with the other and scowls appeared once again.

"It's too late" Giles lectured moving away from the angry vamp. " I warned you once to never underestimate Willow." " At first your abandonment cause her to worry endlessly, then she started doubting her own self worth once again. People have been cruel in their gossip, but she as always has risen above every challenge presented to her. She was vital in our defeat of the mayor's ascension. She has made the well being of her child a priority above everything else. Willow has made plans for her herself and her child, she has moved on and you're not in the picture anymore."

"Oh you're just loving this, I see how you look at her, you'd like nothing better than to play house with her?" Wouldn't you?" Spiked accused.

"I'm surprised the wanker lets you here sniffing around, he's never been to good about sharing." Tell me where is he cause I'm going to start by torturing him and then rip his fucking organs out one by one starting with his oversized dick. I'll let you watch since you enjoy it so, and I might let you live" Spike grinned his yellow eyes glowing. " Where is he? I know he can't be here now or else he would have been posturing and posing to impress her." " Don't tell me he's still running with the slayer too." He's never been the faithful type. Although that's to my advantage since I know Red, has quite a temper," he said rubbing his still burning ass.

"Angel's not around." Giles snapped. " You better leave now I won't have you upsetting Willow any more." he threatened, holding the crossbow.

"Where is he?" Spike stared unblinking at Giles.

"I suspect about now he is beating the crap out of Xander. I only hope he doesn't kill the boy, as it would upset Willow." Giles said shaking his head.

"Where is he?" Spike asked approaching Giles.

"I don't know. He and Xander went looking to find you." Giles answered.

"What?" Spike asked not sure he heard correctly "Looking for me? Peaches and Scrappy Doo teamed up to hunt me down, well that's a scary combination." Spike laughed. " So Angel and the puppy thought they would take me out first, some sort of proactive strike?" " How bloody ripe." He chuckled.

"No, unfortunately. They wanted to bring you back...they were concerned for Willow and... foolishly thought you and she could reconcile." Giles scoffed.

Willow was sobbing on her bed. She had passed that damn cat in the hallway probably rushing towards Spike, both of them traitors, they deserved one another. Willow thought she had been making great progress in getting over her heartache because of him. Seeing him, his handsome face hearing his voice call her Red again. Goddess she wanted to swoon from delight, after everything that has passed one look from him and it was like he had thrown an electrical switch and her body was on overload. Willow was so angry with him and herself. She hated herself because she wanted nothing so much as to throw herself into his arms. She missed him and desired him, Willow told herself she need to not let him mess with her head or lie to her any more. Giles will make him leave, she could count on Giles.

"Let me get this straight, Angel and Xander went looking for me.. too bring me back.. Have I returned to some bizzaro alternative universe?" Spike laughed. "I'll be buggered". " So why is Willow living here at the mansion.. has Angel moved again?"

"Not yet, Willow actually thought this mansion would make a good headquarters for us to work. It's a bit out if the way, there is lots of space to work, and train, and after the baby is born Willow will have us all to help take care of him." Giles explained.

"Are you out of your bleeding mind?" " Willow and my child will not be hanging out with the slayer, and plotting the downfall of evil incarnate with you." " No, I'm going to take her someplace safe far away from the hellmouth." Spike replied.

Giles shook his head, "What part of this evening events didn't you understand?" " Willow doesn't want you here, she doesn't want you in her life period!"

"We'll just see about that." Spike snarled, turning round on his heels and moving into the hallway Saber scampering after him. Giles, followed close on his heels, " Willow really shouldn't be upset any more tonight, you've seen how angry she was and how her Wiccian powers manifested themselves... It too dangerous." Giles appealed.

"What do you mean dangerous?" Spike asked

"For starters the emotional stress isn't good for the baby, and her powers have manifested themselves in strange ways recently, and she's been having nightmares." Giles explained placing a restraining arm on Spike.

"Is she unwell? Is there something wrong with the baby?" Spike asked panic stricken.

"I'm not sure..." Giles shrugged his shoulders.

"I 'm a bit concerned over her mental state, as have the others." Giles admitted. " So as I said before I'll not let you upset her." Giles asserted, placing himself in Spike's path.

Spike sighed, "Look mate, I know how much you all care for Willow, that's why I trusted you to take care of her." "You've been a good and loyal friend to her." "I left because I thought it was the right thing to do for her." " I've been a bloody demon for over a hundred years." I'm not sure what the right thing is. Spike's eyes welled with tears. " I thought I didn't have anything to give her.." " I left telling myself it was the best thing for her." I tried to convince myself, I was just infatuated with her, tried to convince myself that it was lust, and the thrill of the adventure and novelty of being with a mortal women. " I've been away from her six weeks.... The time away from her has dragged on and seems longer than my mortal and immortal years put together" He sighed. "All I know is that women possesses part of my mortal soul. She is carrying my child in her womb."

"I am an empty soulless shell, my love for her fills me up."

"I was wrong .. to leave her... I can give her and my son love.... It may not be enough.. but.." Spike looked at the watcher. " Please"

Giles was struck by Spike's humility. "You must be patient with her, try not to upset her... you shall respect her wishes.... and if she allows you back into her life, know that if you cause her pain and heartache again I shall kill you with my bare hands." Giles said his voice steely and cold.

Spike looked into the Watchers green-eyed glare. Spike moved to pass Giles and turned around, "I know how much you love her... your all in love with her.. but if she doesn't.. won't be with me.. I'd.." he swallowed and continued, "..want her to have you..." Giles stared in surprise at the vampires retreating form.

Spike heard Willow's sobs as he approached her bedroom. Every time he heard her weep he felt like he was being gutted. He pushed open the bedroom door.

" Oh Giles," she cried turning to the doorway.

" You she hissed., what have you done to Giles? " she asked in alarm.

" Nothing Red, I just want to talk." He said softly. < Liar I want to take you in my arms and hold you and kiss you and never let you out of my sight again. >

" I told you to leave my house.. I don't want to see you again." She pointed at the door.

" Willow, please he said moving closer."Willow recoiled backward to put more space between them and cringed.

Spike felt like someone had ripped out his undead heart.

" I'm sorry if I upset you, or scared you kitten." He said softly.

" No stop it.. " Willow cried harder and put her hands over her ears.

" I won't listen to any more of your lies or promises." She cried.

" I'm sorry if I've hurt you, Red.. I thought it was for the best.. it was the hardest thing I ever did leaving you.. I screw up everything.. I can't even stay away." He replied red tears falling from his blue eyes.

"What's the matter Druscilla wouldn't take you back?" she sneered.

" What, is that what you think?" " I know I'm a bit of an asshole but.."

" What is it you want from me?" " As you can see I'm not exactly in top form anymore, not even worth a tumble in the dark." She spat.

"Want.. Willow I love you.. I love our son.. You're the most beautiful.."

"Stop it," she shouted and began to sob again " I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE!"

"Red, I'm sorry, please calm down... I know I've acted badly and understand if you hate me and can never forgive me but you have to believe how much I love you.. How much I want to be with you.

"Ha. You left me" she cried, " You left me.!"

"I'm so sorry.. I thought.. please, please kitten," he once again moved toward her.

"Don't touch me!" she shrieked The mirror above Willow's dresser shattered into thousand of tiny fragments. Giles was at the door.

"You'd better leave.." he glared at Spike.

"Willow, I'm going for now.. but I want you to know that I'll be back tommorow and every day thereafter.. I'm not going to leave again. < I'll make it up to you, I'll be worthy of your love. > Spike left, and Giles hugged Willow tightly as she sobbed.

Spike left the mansion feeling like shit. < That was just great, she hates you, doesn't believe a word I saw. She thinks I left her for Dru? That I am only interested in her for quick shag. Can I blame her, I am a murderous killer, and I was obsessed with Dru for almost 75 years. But during that time.. Willow wasn't even alive.. I mean .. I loved her first but then the damn warlock made me forget.. Damn my head hurts. How the hell am I going to win her heart back...? Prove to her my devotion? >

< I can't believe I've stooped this low>.

" Spike, what the hell are you doing here?' Buffy asked yawing sleepily. " Do you know what time it is?"

" I came to talk about Willow, can I come in?" Spike asked.

<Gee, he looks like shit, sallow and thinner. > " Oh all right," she said opening the door.

"Do you have any hot chocolate?" He asked hopefully.

"Yes" " Come on" she said walking into the kitchen.

They sat at the table sipping cocoa. " So Willow wasn't all happy to see you?"

"She nearly staked me." " Your damn watcher would be glad to do the deed himself."

"What happened," Buffy asked

"I guess I didn't make the best entrance."

"What did you do?" Buffy asked.

"Well Giles had his bloody hands all over her and they were both smiling and happy. Cor, I haven't been able to sleep, eat or shag since I left, and I find out she shacked up with Angel and is all happy with Giles." He explained.

"And. You did what stupid thing?"

" I crashed in on them game faced and growling and scared them both a bit.Buffy grabbed Spike, " You didn't hurt Giles or Willow did you?"

"No," She in a rage literally staked me. I don't know if she was aiming for my arse or if it was a lucky miss."

Buffy burst out laughing.

"I'm glad you think this is so funny." He sneered.

" Tell me what I can do to make her believe how much I love her."

"Spike, you got to understand Willow's been through a lot. The whole times travel spell. God I read parts of her journal, she loved William with her whole heart, she was willing to make incredible sacrifices for him. She lost him; Giles said that when he found Willow in Witches Hollow she was half crazed. She has been terrorized by Aaron, is pregnant, hooks up with you demon ass, almost dies and then she looses you all over again." Buffy explained.

"She hasn't lost me? " Spike said confused.

" Spike, you left." " Willow suffered and grieved William then she looses you too." She's had to put up with shit from Oz and her parents. Willow been tight-lipped about who the father is. I wonder if she would have even told us, if we hadn't already know."

"Is she ashamed or unhappy being pregnant?" Spike asked.

"No, I don't think that's it, Willow is one of the kindest most open, person I've ever know.. Willow kind of just shut part of herself off, after you left.. She keeps busy with work and she is very excited about the baby that seems the only thing she is truly happy about. We've all been so worried about her. There is such pain in her eyes." Buffy replied.

" I saw it" Cor, I heard it in her voice behind the anger" " I'll do anything to make it better."

"You're going to have to be patient with her, make her feel special, romance her." Buffy suggested.

"She is special, Ducks, I'don't know the first thing about romance." " A spot of torture and a little S & M was Dru's idea of a fun time." He admitted

"Ewe, too much info" " Flowers and poem's, candlelight dinners and dreamy thoughtful stuff like that" Buffy suggested.

"Have you got some paper, I should write some of this down."

"Your pathetic" Buffy said shaking her head.

"Look are you going to help me or insult me all night, luv?" Spike said testily.

"What kinds of things did you do when you dated the first time?" Buffy asked

"We didn't much, I mean we had several picnic's and we enjoyed riding along the moors." < and I loved her body and soul morning noon and night. >

Buffy noticed how handsome Spike looked, his face lit up and he glowed when he talked about the good times he and Willow shared. <Wills you better snap out of it girl, this guy adores you.>

"So you plan a few picnic and romantic dinners, buy her some silly presents, make her feel beautiful and desired, buy her something sexy to wear. Wills is not feeling very attractive anymore. seduce her."

Buffy said."Willow has never looked more beautiful but you're not suggesting I. ... I may be a demon, but I'm not some depraved monster that will ravish her now... in.. her condition.."

"Spike, I accompanied Willow to her last doctors appointment she is very health, so is the baby, she's only five months along, Gosh I saw literature in the doc office that said sex is OK as long as the..." Buffy trailed off as she caught Spike face aghast. She giggled. " You so Victorian." And rolled her eyes.

Spike blushed, "as long as what?" he stammered

"As long as the intercourse isn't too... your body doesn't... Buffy couldn't believe she was talking to Spike about having sex with her best friend.

"Doesn't do what?" he asked.

"Christ, no hard thrusting, pick some other positions besides the missionary where you both can enjoy it without putting too much pressure on her abdomen." Make her orgasm a lot cause it helps her muscles stay fit which can make her deliver a lot easier." Buffy face was flaming as she finished.

"Will you help me go shopping for her tomorrow?" Spike asked.

"Sure, " now out I need my beauty rest."

Early the next morning Spike contacted the three floral shops in Sunnydale. Since Spike wasn't sure what Willow liked he paid for each story entire inventory to be delivered. He offered a bonus to each shop to send notes with each arrangement. Spike had broken into the Sunnydale library and spent the night reading and copying poetry. He said he would drop off poems, which should accompany each arrangement.

Willow was up until almost daybreak when she finally drifted into fitful sleep, she had had nightmares again. She was surprised when she awoke that it was almost 11:30 a.m. Willow walked down the hallway and heard Giles directing someone, " over there... You're going to have to put some in the kitchen and courtyard because there isn't any more room."

Willow was overcome by the smell of flowers; every space in the living area was covered with flower arrangement and plants.

"Oh Willow" Giles smiled.

"Giles who died? " she asked alarmed.

"No, these flowers are for you dear."

"Me" she squeaked

"From who?" < NONO HE DIDN"T DID HE? >

"There are cards attached to very one so far." He said. Just then another florist deliver person appeared.

"I've got a whole lot of flowers for Willow Ashton." He stated.

<Oh Goddess he did>

Willow picked up an arrangement of purple irises and read the card:

And Yet, because thou overcomest so,

Because thou art more noble and like a king,

Thou canst prevail against my fears and fling

The purple round me, till my heart shall grow

Too close against thine heart henceforth to know

How it shook when alone. Why conquering

May prove as lordly and complete a thing

In lifting upward, as in crushing low!

And as a vanquished soldier yeilds his sword

To one who lifts him from the bloody earth-

Even so, Beloved, I at last record,

Here ends my strife. If thou invite me forth,

I rise above abasement at the word.

May thy love larger to enlarge my worth!

< God this is beautiful, It's Elizabeth Barrett Browning> She felt her heart skip a beat. She looked about the room and saw him standing in the bright sunlight in the broken doorframe wearing a pair of black ray bans red shirt and black jeans, he was holding a stuffed penguin.

Willow's heart stopped beating for a millisecond. < How dare he come here looking all hot and sexy, and the nerve sending all these beautiful flowers... don't go all gooey girl he left you and is probably just rebounding again like some sort of mad pinball.. What is he doing with the stuffed penguin? >

Willow scowled as Spike asked if he could come in.

"I have noting to say to you." Willow said flatly.

Spike glanced at Giles, " I'll help the florist put the newest delivers in the kitchen, and your room Willow" Giles replied leaving the two alone.

" OK, but could you just listen a minute... well actually lov, give me five..and I'll go" Spike smiled sheepishly.

Willow sighed deeply, < Well if I let him have his say and he realizes I'm not going to change my mind he'll leave> " Talk"

Spike entered the room and took off his ray bans. He walked toward Willow. < Goddess I just want to back up and flee...It hurts to have him so close. >

Spike stopped three feet from her and got down on his knees. " Willow I've been talking a lot with Pandora, he held up the stuffed penguin and I know now that I've been an ass, a scared, wimpy excuse for a man/ demon/ vampire. I should have never ever left you... I thought.. you would be better off without me... that.. I would only make you unhappy.. but I never ever stopped loving you for a second, being away from you has only made me realize how much more I loved you than I ever thought... I mean .. the time away, I never stopped thinking about you or the baby.. and I got Pandora here for our son to talk to and stuff .... I never wanted to cause you pain and like a jackass I ended up doing so.. I won't ask you to forgive me.. I just want you to know that I love you and the baby and I want to be with you ... and your so beautiful... and I'll do whatever you ask .. I'll respect you wishes... but that I'm not going to leave you ever and I'll be close by you and the baby..." he finished and handed the stuffed penguin up to her. Willow's legs were shaking, she felt hot and sweaty like she couldn't breath and her heart was pounding.

<I'll die...I can't... I want ..> She clutched the penguin tightly with one arm to her chest

"I'm scared" she whispered looking down into his sky blue eyes, her face wet with tears.

"Of what kitten, me?" He asked softly, taking her free hand.

Willow pulled back from his touch. Spike felt like he'd been hit with holy water. < She can't bear me to touch her, she afraid because of my killing our friends, my almost killing her. >

Spike closed his eyes and sighed.

"I'm afraid... that if.. I let you...in..again and you leave..or I loose you... I'll die" she admitted ashamed.

"What?" " I won't leave you again, I promise." Spike said standing up. < I just want to hold her >.

"You promised me before, more than once and I've lost myself in you twice.. I can't I won't again .. I have the baby to think about..." Willow said wiping her tears and putting her resolve face in place.

<No, Don't do that Don't close up again>

"I'm sorry, Red, I don't know what else to say. I'll try and make things up to you. I won't leave you." He said red tears leaking down his chiseled cheeks. " I know I've betrayed your trust... we can start again.. slowely.. if you need to.." he beseeched.

"I don't know.. part of me wants to.. but I'm so afraid.." she sobbed.

" Afraid how?" he asked.

" I love William with all my heart.. I was willing to sacrifice everything for his love.. but you left me in anger.. and you were killed.. I saw Angelus rip out your throat.. and I wanted to die. I think I would have if Giles didn't find me and bring me back.. I went back for him.. but I felt betrayed by him.. with Druscilla.. and then I wanted to trust him, but it was you then... I didn't want to trust you but I let myself and I was so angry and hurt and when I saw you die. I saw the blood and wounds that monster inflected upon you and I realized as I tried to save your vampire life that I loved you too. William was a part of you but that the person that you had become as a vampire I also loved. Then we had a wonderful month together and I started thinking about you and me and the baby as a family, having a future.. and you left me. Left us." she explained. " It hurt so much.. and I began to doubt everything.. and hate myself for being so foolish.. I hurt so much if.. if I didn't have the baby to think about .. well .. I... thought about.. killing myself.. to stop the hurt. Then I worried that you'd gone back to Dru and that you and she might try and steal the baby from me." She sobbed.

"No.. No., How could you think that" Spike said in horror. < I've ruined everything. Buffy's right, so much has happened to her in such a short period of time. For me.. I loved her and then lost recollection of that love until she came back recently.. I have lived a full lifetime without her, with Dru.> "I was stupid to leave you and the baby. " " I understand know how much all of this has caused you pain, but I never would intentionally try and hurt you or the baby. Please believe that at least." He begged.

"I want to... but.." she was interrupted by him.

"Red, if you want to even a little, it can be a place for us to start from.. I mean it we can start fresh and go as slow as you like and I'll respect your boundaries." < Please give me the strength to respect her boundaries. > Spike bargained.

"I don't know? " she whimpered.

"I'll give you some time to think about things".

"Can I come and take you out for dinner tonight... we can talk some more... ok.." < PLEASE SAY YES PLEASE> She nodded her head.

Spike's face lit up and he gave her a thousand watt smile. " I'll pick you up at seven.. if that is ok"

"Yes".

Willow hugged Pandora and watched Spike leave through the broken doorway. She looked around at the flowers and cards. < can we start over?.>

Spike sped over to Buffy's. She was very surprised to see Spike outdoors in sunlight. < Right the protection spell thingie, I guess it stays active until it's deactivated? >

"She said she would go out to dinner with me" Spike crowed. Buffy thought he looked like a kid at Christmas.

"You said you would help me go shopping for her." " Come on" he said grabbing her hand let's go."

"Hey, I've got to get my purse, jeez" Buffy laughed. < This could be fun. >

Xander woke up slowly his head splitting. God my jaw hurts...< Oh boy did I ever have the most erotic dream again...MOG it was> "Hey sleepyhead, the brunette cooed" < REAL> She leaned over and kissed him Xander felt her hands caressing his hair. < Whose hands are touching my cock? > " Hey, Matty, I want to say good morning too," another female voice pouted. < Angel must have killed me and I'm in HEAVEN>. The buxom redhead shoved the covers away and latched onto his cock with her lips.

< PLEASE LET THIS BE HEAVEN. >

Angel and Xander had hit Las Vegas a little less than twenty hours before. They had hit pay dirt right away as several of the casino showgirls remembered Spike. Each remembered how he won big and wasn't stingy. Angel asked if Spike had been in the company of any particular women. <I'll rip off his dick>

The women couldn't recall. Xander was drooling over these two girls and Angel took this as an opportunity to be Xander free for a while. He knew he could work faster alone. Besides the ride up from Mexico had been even worse than the trip down. Angel had made the mistake of letting Xander drive the car. Angel must have fallen asleep because when he woke up Xander had them parked at a truck stop in southern California. Angel went inside and couldn't find Xander anywhere. < Did some trucker abduct him? Did he hitchhike his lame ass back home? >

Angel asked round and a trucker piped up and said that some kid was camped out on the john, moaning and groaning. " Montagmazuma's Revenge" he laughed.

<Why me? > Angel thought. Xander came out of the bathroom twenty minutes later still looking green around the gills. " I told you not to drink the water." " Why don't you listen to anything I say" Angel complained.

" Maybe cause you have to open your mouth and speak up a little so I could actually hear you, Christ all you do is mumble and bitch and make your eyes all sad and quiver your lips." " Maybe women find that shit attractive but I'm sick of it!" Xander spat.

Xander slept most of the way to Vegas. He swore he was going to have a little fun away from Dead Boy.

When he and Angel had met the showgirls, Xander thought it was his opportunity.

He pulled Angel aside, " Look I think there holding back a bit, give me a little time, and a few drinks and I'll have the secrets to King Touts Tomb." Xander offered. Angel thanked, whatever God was responsible for this opportunity and told Xander he would meet him back in the room they had rented.

Xander drifted off in a sated sleep. He was awaked again by one of the girls. He wasn't sure which one. " Your cute." She said huskily. " Would you like to join us?" < Xander his head under the blanket didn't know if he could pleasure another women again so soon, < Listen to me...Has all the blood surging to my overused member caused brain damage. Being young I can get it up again.. With the right incentive. >

He pulled the blanket down and was looking into Angel's glaring dark eyes.

" Each man shouted, " No" in response to the girl's request for a new bedmate.

" Is Spike under there too Xander?" Angel asked sarcastically. " Maybe he crawled up your ass"Angel snapped.

" Somebody sounds a bit jealous" Xander replied

" Get dressed were going, Spike left here just before we left from Sunnydale." I called Giles a little while a go and Spike's back begging for Willow's forgiveness." Angel said.

"How do you like that here we are searching all over the good ole USA and he slinks back to Sunnydale."

Xander thanked his playmates and explained he had important investigative business in Sunnydale.

Angel laughed, "come on Austin Powers"

" So where are you going to take her out to dinner?" Buffy asked as they pulled into the mall parking lot.

" I don't know, any suggestions?" he asked.

" There is this place outside town just up the coast which is a supposed to be four star's and overlooks the ocean. A romantic moonrise perhaps." Buffy suggested.

" Do you think they serve jam sandwiches?" he asked.

" What?"

" Strawberry jam sandwiches, Willow just loves them" he smiled. " Oh and pickles, lot of pickles."

" The more I get to know you Spike the more you scare me." Buffy chuckled.

" Which dress do you think she would like better?" Spike asked holding up a fire red sequined minigown and a green velvet brocade gown?"

Buffy laughed, " You want her to take you back right?"

Spike nodded his head, " Yes, why would I be torturing myself with the likes of you Ducks,"

Buffy smirked, " Willow would think that you after treating her like a slut if you give her the red one and the green one even worse it has Druscilla all over it."

Spike sighed, " What then?"

Buffy picked up a black silk dress, it was calf length, and it had a high waist, spaghetti straps and a scooped neckline. It had a matching sheer silky shawl. " This one, Spike the high waist will not accentuate Willow's pregnancy, it's very sexy, and black is so slimming"

" Remember Willow is super self conscious about her body now." " Let's find you something to wear," Buffy offered.

Buffy and Spike nearly came to blows in the men's department. Spike insisted on getting a black suit and wanted a red silk shirt to go with it.

" You'll look like a goddamn Vampire" Buffy said through clenched teeth.

" Did all that hair dye finally poison your brain?" " I am a demon, you dodo!" Spike growled.

" Yeah, why not remind Willow about all your worst qualities." After knocking over a mannequin and scaring two salesmen away, Spike finally agreed to the navy blue suit and white shirt.

"We need to make one more stop," Buffy said. " Turn here, pull in there".

" Why are we going here Ducks?" Spike raised his eyebrow at her suspiciously.

"We're going to get you a book with pictures and maybe some message oils or sexy bubble bath." She said < Or maybe a studded dog collar, I bet Willow would love to see you heel>

" I' don't need any damn pictures and stuff" Spike sputtered.

" Your not embarrassed are you?" Buffy teased.

"Of course not... it's just... well... Oh bloody hell... I've never been in one of these shops before all right are you happy now, Slayer?" he scowled.

" I'm giddy, this is going to be fun."

Buffy left Spike to browse around. Spike began reading a book on tantric sex practice. Buffy found a book on the karma sutra.. She flipped through a few pages and marked the corners. She walked over to Spike, " I've marked a few pages here, she said pointing to positions that should be safe and fun."

"SSSHHHH" " Can you keep your voice down, bloody hell do you think I need a book to tell me how to please the women I love?" he whispered. " Maybe you want to stand round like some airplane attendant waving hand held lights and directing me into the hanger." He chided.

Buffy ignored him, " I've picked out some bath gel stuff and massage oils, come on you can get that book too if you want" she said snatching it out of his hand and moving to the register.

" No wonder Angel/Angel is taken with that girl, Geesh."

" What's in the box, Ducks?"

"It's a special present for Willow, she may share it with you if you play your cards right bud." Buffy giggled.

" Oh and tonight, under no circumstance are you to have sex." Buffy added.

" What? I thought that was the plan dinner and sex, I mean the dress and ... stuff he stuttered."

"Not tonight, you pervert, it's your first date. Keep it light and romantic and flatter her and don't touch her except maybe you should ask for a kiss goodnight." Buffy explained.

"You're joking right?" You've done nothing but talk about my shagging her and now I'm not supposed to touch her at all?" < Great, Great, I'm going to have to manage to schedule some time to get off before this date. How am I going to be so close to her all night long? >

Spike went to the hotel room he rented and read the books on sexual positions most of the afternoon.

Buffy went to the mansion and brought Willow by her new dress.

"Guess who I saw shopping at the mall? " He asked me to bring this by and say dinner tonight was dressy."

Buffy said handing Willow the garment. " Who died Willow?" Buffy asked taking in all the flowers before sneezing.

" Spike sent them,... I don't know Buffy maybe this is a mistake." Willow said.

" A girl's gotta eat right?" " Come on lets see how this dress looks on you and I'll help you fix your hair and nails."

At 7:45 p.m. Spike range the bell. Giles answered the door. " Yes, hello, I understand your taking Willow out to dinner... I don't think you should keep her out to late she needs her rest you know." Giles chattered.

Spike sat down on the love seat and waited for Willow. Giles sat silently in a wingback chair pretending to read a book but every time Spike looked up the watcher was glaring at him.

" Spike stood as he saw Willow enter the room. < God Buffy was right about that dress. She's stunning, the black contrasted nicely with her crimson hair. The dress fell loosely over her abdomen; it showed off her shapely legs, arms and neck. The scoped neckline showed off Willow's added cleavage. >

Spike was speechless for a moment. " Willow you look absolutely gorgeous." Giles gushed

< Damn him. I was going to say that. >

" You look beautiful Red," Spike smiled.

< OH Goddess, he is so handsome in that navy suit, The color brings out the blue in his eyes. Breath girl.

Spike opened the car door for her. < He cursed himself and Buffy because all he could see were images of Willow naked and aroused in various sexual positions. Snap out of it, think about... Buffy standing there barking orders and waving landing lights, giving him instructions as to what to do with Willow. > He laughed out loud.

" What's funny?" Willow asked feeling slightly paranoid. < I look like a cow in this dress I just know it.>

" Nothing Red, I was just thinking about how bossy your slayer friends is." Spike replied.

< Yeah Buffy, cool sexy Buffy> Willow sighed sharply.

< Now what, small talk romantic small talk. > " Willow I must say you look so beautiful tonight. That dress is...< not the dress you jerk, he could almost hear Buffy chiding him> .. you.. look so < sexy, no I can't say that> nice. Spike tried.

< I knew it I look like a cow this is such a mistake. I've got to sit across from him all evening looking so damn handsome in that blue suit showing off his amazing eyes, I want him so badly, have I no self respect...he's...>

" Shall we listen to the radio, Red?" he asked feeling uncomfortable with the long silences. < Please don't close down even before dinner>

" Yeah, sure" she replied.

< OK something soft and romantic> he pushed the button and stopped when he heard the call letters for an easy listening station. "Tonight we have a dedication for a very special couple who are trying to find their way back to one another" Here is Sarah McLachlan ' Witness':

Make me a witness,

Take me up,

Out of darkness out of doubt.

I won't weigh down with good intentions,

We'll make fire out of clay

Blood out of vengeance

Will we burn in heaven, like we do down here?

We'll change come while were waiting

Everyone is waiting (yes and you've all been so patient D. :))

And when we're done soul searching

And we carry the weight, die for a cause

Is misery made beautiful?

Right before our eyes

Mercy be revealed or blind us where we stand

Will we burn in heaven, like we do down here?

Will a change come while were waiting?

Everyone is waiting

Will we burn in heaven, like we do down here?

Will the change come while were waiting?

Everyone is waiting

They both sighed.

" Thank you for all the lovely flowers" Willow whispered. " The notes were beautiful." She added

" I'm glad you like them, actually I need to thank a very special lady who taught me how to read.. she opened up an amazing new world to me." Spike smiled at her brightly.

Willow noticed how white his teeth looked in the dark and how even in the dim light she could see his cheeks dimple slightly when he smiled like that. She felt herself become aroused.

Spike shifted and his hands brushed against Willow's black silky stocking clad leg. His mind conjured a picture of how creamy white her thighs would look above the stockings. He felt himself harden.

He swallowed hard. " So" he rasped, "Giles tells me you all managed to defeat the mayor's ascension."

Willow began to tell of the gang's adventure and defeate of the mayor. Twenty minutes later Spike was turning into the exclusive French restaurant

Le Mer de la Lune.

" Oh this place is supposed to be so chic" Willow cooed.

" Nothing is to fine for you Pet,"he said offering her his arm as she stepped out of the car. < Never mind that I had to bribe practically everyone on the staff to get the best table.Unknown to Willow or Spike, Willow's aroused emotional state and her Wiccian powers were causing her to send off waves of sexual energy, once again. Spike was impressed that despite a long line of customers the maitre rushed over to seat them. The older man was mesmerized by the redheaded beauty. He sat the couple on the terrace with the best view of the ocean. The women gave him a smile and he thought he might bust out of his pants.

< God how am I going to look at her beautiful face all night and not touch her? I 'm so randy it's a good thing I don't have to breathe. >

Two different waiters in their hurry to get closer to the table with the arousing redhead collided and their drink trays crashed to the terrace. Willow and Spike turned to see the cause of the commotion. Spike noticed that both men were staring at Willow with goofy smiles on their faces. < What's that all about, she attractive but their acting a bit strange? An expensive place like this I'd expect more professional staff.>

Willow felt like everyone was staring at her. < This was such a mistake; people are staring because I look so funny in this dress. Who did I think I was kidding my belly is hanging out and this dress is way too tight across my breast. > Willow feeling uncomfortable, pulled at her bodice trying to adjust herself.

Willow's movements brought Spike's attention to Willow's ample breasts. He noted that the cool evening breeze and sheer silk of her dress didn't help the situation as he could clearly see the outline of both her puckered nipples. He felt himself harden even more, < his hands were itching to just touch her, to keep his hand from shaking he picked up the water glass for a sip. He made himself tear his gaze away. He looked casually at the two nearest tables and he saw the men at both tables ogling Willow. He almost choked on his water as he let out a growl.

" Did you say something?" Willow asked.

< How dare they stare at her like that...? With lust in their eyes I'll rip their eyes out of their bloody sockets. > " Um... Are you cold Pet, do you want to wear my jacket?" He asked hopefully.

< I knew it, I could just cry, He wants me to cover up, Well you better just get use to it mister cause I'm going to really balloon up in a couple more months. > " No", I'm fine she said defiantly

< I need a bloody drink> " Spike waved at the two waiters who were cleaning up the mess they caused. Both jumped and practically pushed at one another to get to the table. Both waiters stood next to their table and asked Willow what she'd like to drink.

" I'll have a sparkling water with a twist of lime. Both men started to move away as if Spike was invisible. " Hello, I'd like to order a scotch rocks." Spike asked.

" When they left the table, Spike leaned closer towards Willow, " You'd think for such a ritzy place they would have better staff."

" The view is gorgeous though" Willow replied, looking at the crashing surf under the full moon.

" Yes, it is" Spike echoed staring at Willow. Willow felt Spike's gaze and looked at him and smiled.

"Care to dance?" he asked.

" Oh... I.. don't.."

Spike had stood and had taken her hand. He felt a jolt of electricity go through his body and ground in his cock. He shut his eyes for a moment. Willow also felt like she was struck by lightening. < So I have no self-respect, I'd do anything to spend a few minutes in his arms.. I don't really care if the whole restaurant stares and laughs at me behind my back... I'm getting pretty thick skinned if I do say so myself. >

Spike led Willow out onto the dance floor. He placed her hand unto his shoulder and he took one hand in his and placed his other hand on her hip. He looked into her emerald colored gems, " Red, I've missed you so much" Willow's pupils dilated even more with sexual excitement. The male restaurant patrons shifted uncomfortable in their chairs. Each silently cursed the blond haired man.

Spike pulled Willow closer into his embrace, by moving his hand from her hip to caress the small of her back. He could feel her body heat emanate from beneath the sheer silk. His mouth placed a small kiss on the top of her ear lobe. He felt Willow's exhaled breath against his neck. He marveled at the feel of her hard little stomach against his waist. < Thank goodness little man, if you weren't between us your mom would feel my hard arousal and probably would slap me silly. > Willow had her hair pulled up on top of her head leaving her neck bare, and silky whips of fire framed her face. Spike ran his index finger from the top of Willow's neck down to the base of her throat. He could feel Willow's rapid pulse.

"Can't you hold it, We're about twenty minutes from Sunnydale?" Angel asked.

" No, and the highway is to wide open to just stop, pull in there." Xander commanded.

" This isn't some fast food joint you can crash." Angel lectured

" Look, I'll just sneak round back into the bathroom and be back in a flash."

Xander moved round the terrace, keeping an eye out for snotty waiters. He noticed a guy that looked an awful lot like Spike dancing with a redheaded babe. <That GodDamn asshole, I'll kill him... back to woo Willow my ass. >

Xander dashed back to the car, " Spike's here with some bimbo"

" That bastard, Lets teach him a lesson he'll never forget" Angel growled.

Spike was just about to kiss Willow on the lips when he felt himself being wrenched backward.

He felt his head snap back from the impact of a blow, as he staggered backward.. He shook himself and saw Angel and Xander glaring at him murdersouly.

"Prepare to die" the puppy threatened.

"Hey, what's the matter with you two?" Willow cried

"Willow" Angel and Xander cried out in surprise.

Spike saw Angel, < once again that bloody wanker has tried to come between Willow and me, NEVER AGAIN> Spike moved towards Angel with vengeance on his mind. He caught Angel in the gut, and Angel staggered back and crashed into a table sending dishes and food flying.

"Hey, Don't hit him man." Xander replied, jumping to Angel defense, moving towards the charging blond. Spike shoved Xander, " Out of my way Scrappy Do".

Willow, was horrified, how could they be brawling like this, making a scene. The wait staff came charging to try and break up the brawl. Several other customers whom had been on testerone overload already jumped into the fray.

Willow fled in tears into the restaurant. She called Giles from the pay phone outside the ladies lounge.

"Giles,... Please come and get me.." she cried

" Willow are you alright?" he asked his voice concerned.

She told him where she was and asked him to hurry.

Willow, went into the ladies lounge and cried her eyes out.

It took several minutes before the three men realized Willow was gone. Each not noticing where she went began to swear and accuse one another of starting it and upsetting her. By this time the local police had arrived with reinforcements. Angel, Xander and Spike were placed under arrest for disorderly conduct and property destruction. They argued but realized they were in over their heads and vamping out in such a public way would cause more trouble. Willow had asked a waitress to come and get her when Giles arrived.

"Your ride's here Hon, she called to the crying girl."

Willow came out of the bathroom and threw herself into Giles arms. He tried to make sense out of Willow's crying about Spike, Angel and Xander.

From what he had overheard as he came into the establishment and what Willow was saying, the three had caused quite a scene brawling. < How dare they upset her like this. I could ring all their necks. >

Willow fell asleep on the short car ride back to the mansion. Giles swore he would flay the hides off all three foolish men. < Hell Rupert, if you were there you probably would have fought over her too>

The three foolish men were just finished being processed and were about to be placed into a holding cell.

" Hey how about a phone call?" Xander asked. < Being cooped up with one Vamp was bad enough I can't deal with two.>

" Make it quick," the policeman uttered.

" Hello, Giles"

Xander had to hold the phone away from his ear as Giles swore at him and told him that all three of them could stay in jail till the hellmouth froze over and slammed down the phone.

" Well, the good news is that Giles brought Willow home safe but the bad news is that he's pissed and said we could rot here till we all turn to dust.

" How's Willow?" Spike asked worriedly

" Giles says she was very upset" Xander frowned.

" Everything was going so well... I... can't... what's.. the matter with you two...." Spike growled with frustration at a loss for words.

" Hey she didn't look like my Willow, OK, I though she was some bimbo" Xander explained.

Spike had Xander around the throat, " She not yours mate and not his either," Spike pointed at Angel despite what he thinks. Spike started to squeeze the life out of Xander, ".. and she most certainly is not SOME BIMBO."

" Hey cut it out or were never going to get out of here." Angel complained.

Spike used his call to contact Buffy. She wasn't at home so he left a brief message begging her to come and bail them out.

The policeman put the three into a very small holding cell.

" What's a guy have to do to get something to eat around here?" Xander whined.

" If you two have screwed this up for me, I swear I'll.... I'll...." Spike sat down on the small cot looking defeated. " I don't know yet I need to think of something you both truly deserve."

" Look man, I've been trying to make up for some of my past mistakes" Angel admitted. He shook his head towards Xander, you got to give me a little credit, after all I've been saddled with him for about a week." "My time in hell was more pleasant," Angel said sarcastically.

At about 4:00 a.m.

" Buffy" Angel said.Buffy took in the three men. Spike's new suit was torn at the sleeve; his white shirt was all bloody. He had a nasty looking bruise on one of his cheeks. Xander looked like his nose was broken, and he had a split lip. Angel had a hellva shiner.

" You boys need to learn how to share, and play nice," she said sleepily.

" It took you long enough Slayer" Spike griped.

" When I returned from patrol, even before I got your message, there was a message from Giles saying I was to leave your sorry asses in here overnight." " I went to bed, then Giles called about an hour ago, hysterical, babbling about Willow".

All three men grabbed the cell bars with both hands and pressed their faces against the cold steel and asked in unison, " What about Willow"

Buffy explained in the car, " Well Willow has been having some funky sort of dreams more like trances." "Giles says she chants something about feeding dragons in Gaelic, and often this is accompanied by poltergeist type activity. Tonight, he had fallen asleep in the library again and was awoken by Willow chanting away and sleepwalking in a trance." "Giles followed her up to the turret in the west wing of the mansion and he said she was about to climb onto the ledge."

" Bloody hell" Spike swore. < I'm sorry Red, I'm so sorry >

"Giles wants us to work together to find out whether she possessed or what" " You better be on your best behavior, and not upset Willow either, or else Giles's will make me stake your asses." Buffy warned.

When they got to the mansion, they found Giles sitting in Willow's room watching her sleep. Giles looked like shit. Spike thought his heart would burst from his chest. Willow looked beautiful her fair complexion framed by her red tresses. She was clutching Pandora in her arms.

Giles waved them into the hallway and library. " I want someone to watch her when ever she is asleep

Angel I need you to review with me my translations of the Gaelic, and Xander I want you to do a web search.

"I'll watch over her." Spike replied quickly moving back toward Willow's warm light.

He took off his jacket and stripped out of his white shirt and slacks. He silently crawled into bed next to her sleeping form and drew her into his arms. Willow stirred slightly and sighed his name softy before curling up against his side. Spike felt like he was home. He kissed her brow, " I'm home kitten and I'm not ever letting you out of my sight again."

Saber joined the couple on the bed, purring happily as she lay next to Spike's shoulder. Spike lay awake listening to Willow's breathing and he could feel her blood beating under her soft skin. She had rolled away from him onto her side and he mirrored her movement so that he was spooning her. He moved his hands across her slim hips and placed his hand upon her swollen abdomen. <Hello son, Daddy's home.> Spike felt Willow's abdomen move under his hand. " It's the baby" he yelped sitting bolt upright. "What.. " Willow mumbled sleepily. "I felt the baby move... I felt him.." Spike crowed.

" Spike, what are you doing here?" Willow sat up

Spike hugged Willow fiercely, "I felt our son move." he repeated in her ear.

Willow hugged him back. < Goddess, it feels so good to be close to him, he's so happy about the baby. >

"Does it hurt Red? he asked concerned holding her by the shoulders.

" Does what hurt?" she asked.

" When he moves inside?"

" No," she smiled "it kinda tickles"

Spike caressed her face; Willow saw red tears in his eyes. "Willow, I love you so much, I just want to take care of you and the baby, Please.. Please let me start over... I won't mess up again." He implored.

"I'm so sorry for hurting you... Giles told us about the dreams.. and trance.. I think I understand your fear a bit better. Willow I'm so afraid to loose you and the baby... I don't think I would want to live either... As a matter of fact I don't want to let you out of my sight."

The protective walls Willow had erected around her heart were no match for Spike's vulnerability. The walls crashed and the desperate love and affection she carried for him coursed through her body and soul.

Willow reached up to touch Spike's cheek and caught a single red tear. Willow leaned in and kissed the tear tract softly.

Spike whimpered softly and caught her face gently between his two hands and he gazed deeply into her emerald eyes. " I love you" he rasped and placed a tender kiss on her lips.Willow, whimper in reply and deepened the kiss. She ran her tongue against his closed lips seeking entrance like she had so long ago when they first kissed.

He moaned and opened his mouth to her. He pulled her into his embrace and rolled her over him as he lay back against the bed. Saber growled deep in her throat and jumped down from the bed. She was going to start looking for a place to leave a present.

He kissed her neck and ran his hands over her back down to her ass.

"God you're so hard" she gasped.

"Baby, I've been rock hard since I saw you in that sexy black dress last night." He ran his hands down and grasped the bottom of her cotton nightshirt and pushed it up so that he could touch her skin. " Sit up Red, Let me undress you." Willow moved to oblige. Spike lifted her nightshirt and tossed it on the floor. He stopped and stared at Willow. Willow felt his gaze burn into her flesh. She saw the fire in his eyes. He raised his hands as if to touch her breasts but froze and brought his eyes up to meet hers asking permission.

Willow, took his hand in hers and moved it to her breast. Spike inhaled deeply, "Your nipples are darker in color he said in amazement" as her ran his finger over the hard peaks.

Willow, hissed, "It's my hormones" she gasped and moved her hands to touch Spike through his boxer shorts. She moved one hand into the slit and rubbed her thumb under the sensitive tip and her forefinger across the head of his cock. Spike squeezed his eyes shut. " Your touching me like that just with your hands makes me want to come he growled. He rolled her back onto the bed and Willow's other hand joined her first to grip his cock at the base and run two fingers up his silky marble cock. " Slow down love, or I'm going to come ahead of you. He pulled back from her torturous ministrations. He lifted his hips and removed the constricting shorts. He asked Willow to roll over onto her side.

She whimpered his name, " Spike" in frustration.

" Trust me Red". He slid his body up against her back and wrapped one arm between her and the mattress and the other between her arm and her torso. Spike placed his hands on her full breast and kissed and licked her neck. She cooed and arched her ass back into his aching cock. He licked her ear lobe and thrust his tongue into it. Willow cried out softly as Spike pinched both her sensitive nipples between his fingers.

He moved one hand down to her hip and squeezed it gently. " I'm so wet she mewled, I want you, please she cried. Spike's cock twitched violently and he thrust his fingers down through her curls to rub against her clit. Willow thrust against his hand away from his twitching cock. Spike needed to bury himself into her.

He asked Willow to lift her leg and move it back slightly over his. Spike angled his body closer to hers and Willow hissed as she felt his cock poised at the back of her soaking passage. She arched her hips back and Spike guided himself into her slowly. He morphed into his game face and bite into his own lips, from the sheer pleasure of it. < Thank goodness she can't see my face. > Spike left his one hand on her breast and used his other to tease her clit as he slowly began to enter her. He broke out in a sweat as he concentrated on going slowly and his body rejoiced in her hot tight passage. Willow gasped and moaned she could feel his fingers pressing against her clit from the outside and his cock rubbing against her from the inside. They had never loved this way before and he filled her and pressed inside her sending out incredible waves of new sensations.She could feel Spike's balls rub against her ass, and then he was slowly withdrawing from her, almost completely before her started to glide into her again. " Oh God, she yelled, Fuck me". He bit into his lip harder and sucked his own blood from his lips. " That's exactly what I'm doing love." Spike continued this languid pace, increasing both their tensions. He pulled and pinched her nipple and ran his finger around her clit every so often brushing his thumb across her engorged sex. Willow didn't think she could take too much more pleasure.

" I'm so close" she moaned.

"Me too baby." I want you to come with me OK."

"MMMM" she hissed.

Spike pulled back and slid into her until his balls caressed her cheeks and he twisted her clit between his fingers. Willow let out a loud feral cry at the top of her lungs and she clench down on him with her muscles, Spike moaned and bit down hard on his own lips and tongue and he shot his seed into her.

The Scooby gang heard Willow's feral yell. Angel morphed into his game face and growled.

Xander having witnessed Willow cry out like that before when she and Spike did the nasty, knew what was going on.

Giles jumped up from the table, knocking his chair back onto the floor moved towards the hallway.

Buffy intercepted him, her face flaming. < I guess he didn't need those books after all>

" He's.. hurting her, Buffy" Giles growled.

Buffy just shook her head. It hit him suddenly. He shut his eyes and turned and walked out into the garden.

Buffy gave Giles a minute and followed him out into the courtyard.

" Are you OK?" She asked touching his arm.

" Yes, of course." He replied.

"You really love her too don't you? "

"Yes, I suppose so, " he replied sheepishly.

"Willow is special, to have four men completely gaga over her, and if it were anyone other than Willow, Well I just might stake her." "Willow loves you and Xander so much, and even Angel a little too. She would do anything for any of us without even thinking. I guess her kindness, compassion and loyalty make her so lovable."

"Yes, she is very special." Giles said taking off his glasses to wipe them nervously.

"Giles she is so in love with Spike, and he is so much in love with her he's forsaken his pride, and in spite of him being a vampire, he is really trying to do what is best for her.

"I think you should talk with him about giving it a rest for Christ sakes." Xander grumbled.

"Me?" Angel's voiced squeaked in disbelief.

"Yeah, that ought to go over well." Angel replied

"She pregnant for God's sake." Xander whispered.

"No!" Angel mocked. "Xander in Ireland men and women had relations practically up until the baby is born and start again soon thereafter."

" Yuck" Xander said shaking his head.

Spike held Willow tightly, as they both returned from their passion induce daze. Spike his human face in place lifted himself upon his elbow to look down into Willow's flushed face. " Are you alright...?" he asked searching her face for discomfort or regret.

She rolled over onto her back and brought her hand up to caress his face. "I missed you so much," she said softly, running her hands over his angular cheeks and full lips.

Her green eyes still dark with passion. "I've never been better." She replied giving him her sweet Willow smile. "He lowered his head to capture her lips and stroked her cheek softly. As their kiss deepened he moved his hand upward to tangle in her fiery tresses.

" Mmm" she broke away, "bathroom". Spike rolled out of bed first to allow Willow to get up. He noticed Pandora the stuffed penguin lying on the floor and Saber was curled up against her sleeping. Willow spied this also and smiled then she pointed and began to laugh. Spike followed her finger and noted that Saber had left a liquid present upon his dress shirt that he had dropped on the floor. "S'not funny, Luv," he replied. Willow, picked up her robe and slipped it on. Spike pulled on his discarded navy blue dress slacks. " What am I supposed to wear?"

"Angel or Giles will loan you a shirt." she chuckled as she entered the bathroom.

Spike was right behind Willow," Spike do you mind?" she cried indignantly.

" What?"

"A little privacy " she flushed raising her eyebrow

"Red, I wasn't kidding when I said I wasn't letting you out of my sight." He grinned.

" Out, Now!" she said turning him around and gave him a shove.

" All right then, be that way." He said to the closed door.

"I'm fix you something to eat then." He offered.

Spike went into the kitchen to make Willow some food. Buffy entered a few moments later.

"That's the way all demons should be barefoot, bare chested and in the kitchen." she said laughing.

" Very funny Pet," he replied making a third jelly sandwich. " Are there any pickles in the icebox? " he asked.

Buffy handed Spike the pickles. "So from the sounds of it you two are back together?" Buffy teased

" Bloody hell you weren't listen at the door were you?" he asked in disbelief.

" No!" "Will yelled loud enough to wake the dead in the Riverview Cemetery" Buffy laughed.

" You mean to tell me everyone heard?" he asked lowering his voice to a whisper.

Buffy nodded her head. "I'm so glad you followed my advice about waiting and taking it slow." She said rolling her eyes.

" Page 142," he said.

" What?" Buffy asked.

"Page 142" Spike winked and left a blushing Buffy in the kitchen.

Spike entered the room and Angel and Xander shifted nervously. Willow had her hair pinned up damp from the shower. She stood in the doorway her hands on her hips and gave Xander and Angel a cold stare.Spike grinned, < I think I'm going to enjoy this. >

"Well, what do you have to say for yourselves?" she scolded.

" It was Xander,'s fault.." Angel began.

" He threw the first punch." Xander pointed at Angel.

" It was your stupid idea,.

"We're sorry we upset you and caused a scene." Angel replied.

" Yeah, Wills, sorry."

" You both should be, you ruined a wonderful evening." Willow answered.

" Red, I know how they could make it up to you?" Spike piped up.

" Stay out of it fang face." Xander snarled.

" I think Willow deserves a romantic evening since you stooges interrupted last nights dinner, I'll like to try again tonight." "To limit distractions and unforeseen interruptions, I would very much like to dine alone with Willow here at the mansion."

" You two can help by getting lost for the night." Spike suggested.

Willow, darling come, I've fixed you some food" he said pointing to the conference table.

She graced him with a smile and walked over. He pulled out her chair. " Oh my favorite, strawberry jam sandwiches and pickles" she cooed. "Thank you" Spike leaned down and gave her a peck on the lips. " Your Welcome darling."

" I'm going be sick with the Ozzie and Harriet show." Xander griped. < I haven't seen Will this happy in a long time. > Giles came in from the yard. "Good Morning, Spike Willow" he cleared his throat. " There really isn't a good time to talk about this but we must..." Giles said in lecture mode.

" About last night Willow... What do you remember?" he asked.Willow blushed scarlet, " Remember about what?" she asked trying to sound like she hadn't had slow hot sex with Spike.

Giles, blushed, " Before... earlier in the evening... you fell asleep in the car on the way home. I woke you and you changed and went to bed... shortly after that? He inquired.

" I don't remember anything till Spike woke me this morning." She answered.

"Giles, I didn't get wiggy and break things again did I?" she asked concerned.

" Actually Willow, this was much worse than before." He replied.

" This kind of thing has happened before?" Spike cried. " Why didn't you bloody tell me?" he roared.

"Willow has been under extreme emotional distress and you being one of the primary causes, I didn't see fit to discuss it with you." Giles responded tightly.

"Guys, Chill we're all on the same side, remember?" Buffy interjected.

" What happened, Giles?" Willow asked.

" I nodded off in here and I heard you chanting in Gaelic again it seemed to be the same phrase." "This time you were sleepwalking or in some type of trance." " I followed you, ... you walked to the west wing and went upstairs to the old turret and attempted to climb out onto the ledge. Thank goodness I was right behind you." He replied shakily.

" You mean, I was going to jump?" she asked frightened.

" It would appear so, Yes."

" I don't remember?" " Am I possessed or something?" Willow stood up.

Spike hugged her. " It's all right, we'll figure it all out, besides, I'll keep you safe now."

" I asked Angel to check my translations from the Gaelic and he agrees with my interpretations."

" Willow chants bits and pieces of the same thing over and over. Her body doesn't appear to undergo any physical changes, outside of increased respiration but the amount of physic energy you emit is significant enough to move objects" He explained. "Last night you created practically gale force winds."

"What is it she repeats?" Spike asked. 

Giles read the translation:

"We shall be laid together in the night,

And ruder and more violent, be assured,

Then the desirous body's heat and sweat

That shameful kiss by more than night obscured

Wherewith at length the scornfullest mouth is met.

Life has no friend; her converts late or soon

Slide back to feed the dragon with the moon."

"The last stanza more so than any of the others."

" I had Xander do an internet search, and nothing matched up so far." Giles continued.

Spike took the piece of paper from Giles, " This is somewhat familiar to me... but I don't know from where."

"You recognize it?" Giles asked hopeful.

" Not really, but it seems.... almost familiar... I don't know." Spike replied.

" Think harder.... Willow's life may depend on it." Giles sniped.

"Look mate, I would give anything to keep her safe.... I don't appreciate your accusations." Spike growled

" Please stop fighting." Willow blurted out. "I can't stand it when you all fight." "Things are going to have to change around here... Spike, I love Giles, he has been a good friend and has been one of the most stable influences in my life. He has also been invaluable to me during my pregnancy. Giles will be a part of my life and our sons." Spike looked at Willow, mouth-hanging open, like he had been slapped.

Giles raised his eyebrow and smirked at Spike.

"Giles, I love Spike body and soul, He is my lover and soulmate and the father of my child. He at times is short tempered and impulsive... but I love him anyway. I will not stop loving either one of you,... I will not choose." "Furthermore, she pointed at Xander and Angel, my love for you both shall not be called into question. I have enough love and friendship to go around. Stop the petty bickering and jealous posturing for my attention and affections. "

" Have I made myself clear?" All four men nodded their heads guiltily.

" You go girl" Buffy applauded.

" Spike; Buffy, Xander, Giles and Angel have stood by me and I'm not going to alter my relationships with them in order to please you. "

"Spike, I won't stop loving you,... you possess part of my soul and bring my body to heights of ecstasy I never thought possible. I feel complete when we are together."

"I will not have this child brought up in an atmosphere of animosity and hostility." If you all give this child just a little bit of the love and affection you've shown me then he'll be one of the most loved babies ever." Willow, took a deep breath and sat back down. " Now once I finish eating Buffy and I are going shopping for maternity clothes." "I guess we know who wears the pants in your family" Xander teased, breaking the tension. Angel, Buffy and Xander laughed as Giles tried desperately to keep from laughing. Spike shrugged his shoulders, "S'all right with me, as long as I have a family to be a part of" Spike leaned down and kissed Willow's cheek and whispered in her ear, " you better believe I'll be getting into those pants on a regular basis Red." She smacked his chest playfully. "You better put some clothes on." She murmured.

"Yes, I got some shopping of my own to do to get ready for tonight." He grinned, "and Angel and Xander are going to help."

" Giles, I'll think some more about the passage and see what I can come up with." Spike said.

" Yes, and I'll review a few more volumes and see if this is some druid spell."

"Tell me before you leave kitten?" Spike asked as he followed Giles out of the room towards the library

Spike asked Giles, " Do you think Aaron has something to do with this?"

" I don't know, it could be some sort of enchantment, spell or curse." Giles replied.

" It also seems to be tied in to her Wiccian powers and since her powers are more unpredictable during her pregnancy, Willow is like a beacon for magical and supernatural things...this could be some sort of demon trying to take possession." Giles continued.

" What do you mean her powers are more unpredictable during her pregnancy?" Spike asked worriedly.

" Surely you've noticed how Willow's emotional state, for example anger or... desire.. cause ripples in her immediate surroundings thus affecting the physical or biological environment." Giles lectured. " You mean the vortex and her levitating things?" Spiked clarified.

" Yes.. and.. her libido has trigger ... intense arousal in... those around her." Giles stammered.

" What?" " Do you mean to say that her.... her arousal.. causes....."

" Yes.. that's what happened that day in the library when she pretended to be a vamp and what occurred outside her house when you and Angel were..."

" Last night at the restaurant... I knew other men were leering at her.." Spike hissed

" Yes, you're probably right." Giles agreed.

" Well, she can't go out in public, giving everyone a happy." Spike growled starting to pace. " Some jerk might think he can.." Spike started to leave the library, game face in place. Giles stopped him by grabbing his arm. " Spike, Willow doesn't realize the extent of her particular... ability... and besides... it is actually more likely to happen when she is with you since... she you are the one she is so... enamoured with.." "Willow would be horrified if she knew.. and it would likely cause her to be even more self conscious and cause her more even more distress... thus putting her in even more danger." Spike pulled his arm from Giles grip, "Just what are you saying, I shouldn't....be intimate with her?" Spike eyed him suspiciously.

" No... I expect, that she might be even more cranky" Giles stammered blushing.

" Be careful with public displays of affection.... There seem to be a three to six feet range for her...influence."

" What a bloody minute, How do you know all this stuff?" Spike asked angrily.

"I was present in the library and her front yard...and was effected." Giles responded tightly.

" You people are worse than a damn cadre of vampire's" Spike exclaimed. Willow popped her head in the door, "you two are playing nice right?" she asked smiling sweetly. Both men put on a forced smile, " Peachy" they answered in unison.

" Good, Spike Buffy and I are about to leave." Spike moved to join her in the hallway. " Red, do you really think you should go out?"

" Yes, I'm fine, strange stuff just happens when I'm sleeping." She replied caressing his cheek.

< That's what you think. >

" I'll get dressed an go with you," he replied.

" No, I thought you were going to work on my romantic evening?" she cooed, moving her hands down his back to cup his ass cheeks as she rubbed up against him. Spike's eyes flew open wide. < How far is it from here into the library? > Spike pulled back from Willow passionate embrace, Willow took his hand and said, "Maybe I'd better help you find something to wear before I go out?" she smiled sexily leading him down her into her bedroom. Spike shut the door and took Willow into his arms and kissed her neck. " What the matter kitten, did you miss your Spike?" he teased nipping her ear lobe and running his hands down her back.

" I'm still hungry?" she pouted. Running her hands over his quickly burgeoning cock. He hissed. " I haven't had all my food groups today." She teased pushing him backward towards the bed. He let her push him down. Willow began to unzip his pants and tugged them off in one quick yank.

" I wouldn't want my Red to go without." He purred. Willow lay on the bed gently grabbed Spike's erect members in on hand. She shoved her other hand under him to cup his softballs. Spike jumped, and blew out a deep breath. Willow locked her green eyes with his passion glazed blue ones and lowered her head and slowly lick around his

head lapping up his pre ejaculate. Spike clawed at the bed and groaned her name in reverence. Willow caressed his balls and rubbed her fingers along his perineum back until she hit his anus and circled her ran her finger around his tight hole. Spike changed into his game face and growled. Willow lowered her head and started to lick his cock with tiny strokes of her tongue.

" Willow please" he growled, His vampire strength caused him to tear the sheets. Willow relaxed her jaws and took him deep into her throat and used her teeth, lips and tongue to tease him. Willow felt his sacs contract and she stuck a finger up his ass and sucked furiously as he shot his seed into her mouth. Spike screamed in pleasure. He lay upon the bed completely spent. Willow leaned over his face and licked her lips. "Mmmmm so good, Thanks" she kissed him. "gotta go, behave yourself while I'm gone.. no fighting with the other boys."

Angel knocked on the door and opened it. "Jeez, what the hell are you doing diddling yourself?" Angel remarked taking in Spike's prone form, lying across the end of the bed among ripped up sheets. Spike made no move to cover his naked form.

"That may be all the pleasure you get mate," he said lifting his head to look at Angel. "Come to look at me before you diddle?" Spike asked lifting himself off the bed and bending down to pull up his pants, still round his ankles.

" You wish" Angel said flatly. "Willow asked me to give you a shirt." Angel answered tossing the garment toward Spike.

" I meant it before when I said you and Scrappy Doo are going to help me make things up to Willow for spoiling her evening. "What's the matter old man don't think you can get it up again?" " You need some pinch hitters" Angel teased knowing it would anger Spike. Angel wanted to hurt Spike back as his comment about masturbation as his only sexual release hit too close to home. He wanted Buffy badly. He had to put up with Xander's sexploits and listen to Spike and Willow pleasure one another. He cursed his vampiric hearing. Spike changed into game face, and had Angel pinned against the wall before his eyes had registered any movement from his childe. " Look Angelus, she's mine I kill you if you so much as look at her with a carnal thought."

Angel changed and growled. The vamps began to spar in earnest. Their violent ruckus resulted in objects getting broken and furniture knocked over.

Giles and Xander hear the commotion and knew the vamps were at it again.

"It's a good thing Willow isn't here" Giles exclaimed shaking his head. The two vamps were roused out of their fray as they were doused with icy cold water. Giles voice lectured " Willow has asked us all to try and get along for her sake and set a good example for the baby and she isn't out the door two minutes and you two are like a pair of mad dogs." " I really don't understand her affections for either of you." Giles humped and walked away. Xander stood grinning at the two dripping wet vamps. " What the hell are you looking at?" they growled in unison.

"Too bad you guys don't photograph" Xander joked. Spike arose from the floor and shook himself like a dog. "This is what I want you two to help me with before tonight."" Spike explained what he needed to happen. "I'm going to have a proper shower and tend to some things for tonight. Willow upon returning from her shopping trip with Buffy was surprised to not find anyone home. She was even more surprised to find her bedroom cleaned and straightened and new sheets on the bed. < They were fighting again. > She sighed and placed her packages down on the bed and noticed that the new sheets were silk. She saw a note addressed to her.

" Kitten, I am preparing for tonight, I will pick you up at six sharp.

Please wear that sexy black silk dress.

I never had the pleasure of taking it off you last night.

Love William.

Willow smiled, and began to put her things away. She spent the afternoon packing away her old clothes. I wonder if I'll ever be able to fit in them again. She looked at her form in the mirror.

At 6:oo p.m. sharp the doorbell rang. Willow answered the door expecting to see Spike but was surprised to see a man dressed in an old fashion clothes with knee breaches.

" Your carriage awaits." He announced stepping aside. Willow saw a large covered carriage with two chestnut mares sitting in the drive. Spike was standing next to the carriage in a new black suit with a red silk shirt smiling devilishly. He was wearing those sexy black Ray Bans. Willow thought she would melt on the spot. She squealed in delight and moved toward him and hugged him. "This is so romantic" she cooed, lifting her chin for a kiss. Spike kissed her lips softly. "I'm glad you like it." He opened the carriage door for her and helped her in.

"We'll have to save horseback riding until after the baby is born." He grinned.

Willow snuggled closer to him on the coach seat. Spike moved his hand to her black silk stocking clad leg.

" Your so beautiful Red." He kissed her again, and she opened her mouth for him. Willow felt cold metal touch her tongue and pulled back in shock from his kiss. She gripped his chin between her two hands. " Oh God, You've got your tongue pierced!" She yelled. Spike stuck out his tongue. Willow moaned out loud just looking at it. " She stuck out her tongue and ran it over the cold nub. Spike pulled her back into his arms. " You like it Pet?" he asked running it under the flesh between her inner and outer ear.

"Zeus, yes," Willow reached out with her hand to rub his cock through his too tight pants. " Slow down luv, we've got all night." He took her hand in his. I wanted you to enjoy the carriage ride first. He shifted them so she could see out the window. An hour later when the carriage dropped them back at the mansion, Willow gasped again as Spike opened the mansion door. The entire room was ablaze with candles. The conference room table was transformed into a dinning table covered by a beige lace tablecloth. The table was set with splendid china and crystal goblets. Several silver covered trays also adorned the table. Willow stood awestruck. " I don't know about you, Red but I think we might need some food to fortify ourselves for later." She said huskily. He led Willow over to a chair, held it out for her to sit down. " Everything so beautiful" she whispered softly. " You, deserve this and more." He answered touching her hair softly. Spike moved across from her and set down. " I'm so excited, I don't know if I can eat." Willow confessed. " I promise you, you'll need your strength, eat up" Spike teased as he lifted a silver cover. Willow saw the roast chick, potatoes and vegetables and her stomach did a little flip flop.

" The baby is kinda hungry," she said. Willow had eaten half of the food on her plate. She slipped off her sandal and lifted her leg and placed her nylon-covered foot into Spike's lap. She was surprised to feel his erection. His blue eyes met hers. " I've been hard ever since I saw you in that sexy dress" he purred, moving her foot against his cock. Willow licked her lips and felt him against the arch of her stocking clad foot. " Desert now?" she asked.

Spike got up and came round the table and got down on his knees in front of her. " Not just yet Red?" he replied. " Why not?" she asked, running her fingers over his angular cheeks.

" Because, I've something important to ask." Spike took out a velvet bag from his jacket pocket and handed it to Willow.

" A present, I love presents" she said with glee taking the bag. She opened it and let out a sharp cry.

" It was her locket, scratched but unbent and shiny under the candle light." She thought her heart stopped in her chest, her eyes filled with tears and she looked in her soulmate's blue eyes.

" Will you marry me Willow?" he asked his voice choked with emotion. She throw herself into his arms crying and sobbing her love for him.

" Oh Spike, I love you, of course..." sobbed tears running down her cheeks. Spike held her tightly; " We'll have the wedding you always wanted, with Buffy and Giles and your parents and even the two cretins." He pulled back and held her face gently in his hands. " I love you even more today, than when I first asked you to marry me." " I promise we will never be separated again not so much as a single night." " I will try and be a good husband and father Red." He vowed tears in his eyes. Spike helped Willow put the locket on.

Each looked deeply into one another's souls and knew this was right, this was as it should be. Spike kissed her softly on her cheek. " Please do me the honor of a dance?" He asked getting up and pulling Willow upright into his arms.

" My other shoe she giggled."

"Here, let me help you" he said as he slipped it off.

" Put your feet on top of mine so I don't step on your toes." He pulled her tightly against him. Willow wound her hands around his neck and ran her fingers through his short blond hair. Spike caressed her back and waist through the thin silk. He buried his face into her hair and neck. They sway together to the soft music. Spike marveled in the wonder that was Willow. Willow clung to Spike never wanting to let him go again. Willow felt the baby shift inside her womb.

Spike gasped, and pulled back slightly. " Am I holding you too tight .. I felt him.. move against me." He asked in shock.

" No, he's just moving around" she replied raising her lips to kiss his open mouth.

" Spike returned her kiss, and ran his tongue against her teeth and tongue." Willow gasped at the sensation of the cold metal stud inside her mouth.

"Is it time for dessert?" she asked huskily.

" Yes", "We're having strawberries with Willow cream." He answered running his tongue over his own lips. He noted Willow pupils dilated even more in excitement..

Willow moved her hands from his neck to the collar of Spike's jacket to push it off his shoulders. Willow began pulling at his red silk shirt. Spike watched her as she undid his buttons. Willow pulled the shirt off his muscular shoulders and it fluttered to the floor. Willow leaned her head forwards and ran her tongue over his nipple. He hissed and pulled her head back and plundered her mouth. Willow thought she would scream from the sheer pleasure of Spikes hot tongue and cold nubbin ravishing her mouth. Spike ran his hands over Willow bare back and slid the zipper of her silk dress down. He moved his hands back up to her shoulders and pushed the thin spaghetti straps off her shoulders. He moved his mouth from hers and Willow let out a frustrated growl. He chuckled, and moved his mouth to her neck. " God, that tickles" she squirmed. He pulled back slightly and watched as Willow's dress slid down her torso. Spike's breath caught as he drank in the sight of her white creamy skin. She was wearing a black lace half bra. The underwire lifted her ever-increasing breasts so that in her aroused state her rapid breaths caused her breasts to heave in such a way that Spike thought she would spill out of this garment.

He moved his hands to her hips and slid the dress over her abdomen and let it pool around her feet. Spike's mouth went dry as he looked at Willow. She was wearing only black silk thigh high stockings. She was not wearing any underwear. He tore his eyes away from her red curls to meet Willow's passion filled glaze and impish grin.

He moved forward and put his hands on her slim hips as he punished her mouth with his tongue. Willow's knees were shaking. Spike lifted her hips, and growled "Put your legs around me" Willow didn't need to be asked twice. She tightened her legs around Spikes hips and ass. He could smell her arousal and felt her wetness through his slacks. Willow whimpered louder as her core rubbed against his hard cock covered by the rough material of his pants. He quickly moved back towards the covered table. He set Willow's bottom on the edge of the table. He pulled small covered dish closer to him, picked it up handed it to Willow, " Hold this Kitten." She took it and Spike lifted her ass, and wrenched the tablecloth and dishes sideways off the table. Willow jumped in fright, as dishes, glasses and food hit the floor and exploded. " What are you doing?" she asked, " Having dessert." He growled, placing her bottom on the cold hard table. He took the silver dish and removed the lid throwing it over his shoulder. He placed the container down on the table next to Willows hip. Spike removed a juicy ripe strawberry from the dish and placed half of it into his mouth. He leaned forward to let Willow have a taste. She bit into the berry and they sucked against each other's lips. They ran their tongues across one another faces to lick at the sweet juice. Their excited moans become like one long sensual wale. Spikes choose another berry and fed Willow again in this manner. He began running his hands up and down the outside of her silk covered thighs.

Spike's cock was so hard he needed to undo his pants because he felt like he couldn't breath even though he didn't need to. He stepped out of his pants and kicked them aside. Willow hissed as she saw his glistening member and ran her hands from his base to his tip. " Not yet, not yet, " he bit his lips as he pulled away from her sensual touch. " Please Spike she begged."

" I'm not finished with my dessert Pet." Spike picked up several berries. He kneeled down and ran his free hand along Willow's velvet folds. He liked the song of her excitement. Willow was dripping and open like an orchid. Spike moved his hand with the berry and quickly pushed one into her tight drippy vagina. Willow eyes registered suprize and uncertainty as to what he was doing. She opened her mouth to ask and he quieted her with his mouth. She knew this wasn't his finger or his cock. Spike repeated this with two other berries. " Now it's time for berries and cream, he whispered huskily into her ear as he ran the cold nub between the flesh of her inner and outer ear and flicked her lobe.

Spike licked down her neck and sucked the hollow where her throat met her collarbone. Willow was squirming and was trying to close her legs but Spike's thigh kept her spread open to his erotic torment. He was running his fingers along the top of her creamy flesh just above her stockings. He ran his hands up to the creases where her legs joined her thighs. " Spike please,. She keened."

He lowered his lips and used his teeth to pull down the lace of her bra baring both her breasts to his gaze. He looked at her heaving breast. He used his tongue and started to lick at the outermost edge of her puckered areolas Willow tried to lift her hips off the table and use her legs to pull Spike closer to her body. Spike continued to caress her thighs and lick circles first around one nipple and the other.

" Your killing me she panted" " Take me, please." Spike ran his metal nub over her engorged nipple and felt Willow's body shake in an orgasmic tremor. "Oh God" she wailed. He moved to the other nipple and bit down softly. Willow pulled at his hair and neck. " More. I want more" she keened.

" Me too baby." He kneeled and spread her legs wider and inhaled the unigue sent of her and berries. He moved his mouth to her lips and sucked at her core. Willow pulled his hair as she felt Spikes' hot mouth and cold steel lick and suck at her. Spike swallowed the bits of strawberry and Willow's juices and growled deep in his throat and his face changed. Willow felt Spikes ridges rub against her clit as he sucked at her hole. She bucked against his face and came again. She scratched his neck with her fingernail in her sexual frenzy. Spike knew he could take no more, as he smelled his own blood. He stood up and thrust into her. She clawed at his back and bit at his shoulder in her excitement. Spike pistoned in and out with abandon. He felt Willow's walls grip his cock and he roared he bit into his own lips to keep from biting her. Spike felt Willows tears on his shoulder as he came back into focus. " He gripped her shoulders, " I'm sorry luv, I' didn't mean to hurt you." She ran her hands over his sweaty chest. " You didn't... she panted.. It. Was.. so .. intense. " She licked at his chest and he gathered her into his embrace. He picked her up into his arms and carried her into their bedroom.

Giles picked up Xander and Buffy on his way to the mansion. Buffy had pumped Xander for details surrounding Willow's romantic dinner. Xander explained his role in purchasing about 6 dozen candles and fetching fine china. He overheard Spike ordering a carriage and that Angel was to light the candles and make sure the caraters had dinner on the table by 7:00 and that everyone had cleared out before Spike returned with Willow.

" It all sounds so romantic." Buffy sighed. " I bet there still in bed" she giggled.

" It's nearly 10:30 Buffy, and Willow is always an early riser." Giles offered.

Giles unlocked the front door of the mansion. He stopped so quickly just inside the door that Buffy just behind him slammed into his body and did Xander who was behind her.

" Judas Priest" Giles exclaimed. The three took in the lumps of melted wax coating the furniture and hearth. Dishes, glasses, and serving tray were smashed upon the floor as if thrown.

" Oh no, Willow has had one of her episodes." Giles exclaimed in alarm.

" I'm not going to clean this mess up Xander." stated emphatically. Giles was dashing off down the hall in search of Willow. Buffy saw Xander pick up what looked like Willow's black dress. Xander rolled his eyes, " She pregnant for God's sake."

Buffy started down the hall for Giles to try and catch him before he embarrassed himself.

< Gee your some lucky girl Willow, romance and hot sex. You go girl> The door to Willow's room was ajar, as Saber had pushed her way in several hours earlier. Giles stood frozen in the doorway. Buffy looked over his shoulder and saw Spike spooning Willow's body with his. He had his face burrowed into Willow's neck; there is was no way he could be breathing. < He doesn't have to> Saber was curled up between Spike's neck and shoulder. Spike had one hand resting on Willow's abdomen, and his other was possessively clutching her breast. Willow had this look of pure contentment on her face.

Buffy touched Giles on the shoulder and it broke him out of his silent reverie. Giles turned around and moved back toward the living room. Buffy silently pulled the door shut. When the two of them reentered the room

Xander commented, " Jeez, this looks worse then that time at the library. " They left their clothes out here, they're parading about the house naked, isn't bad enough, how am I ever going to eat off that table again?" he whined.

" This mess needs to be cleaned up, if we're going to do any work today," Giles began in lecture mode.

Spike heard the voices, and looked at the clock. < Oh, I was going to get everything cleaned up before they got here. > He dislodged Saber from his neck and looked down at Willow. < I am so lucky, She is amazing> Willow had gotten up several hours ago to use the bathroom and when she returned to bed, decided to wake Spike up in a most pleasant manner. They both fell back asleep after pleasuring one another. Spike caressed Willow hair softly he wished they could stay together like this alone forever. Spike could hear Xander whining and the watcher giving orders. Willow stirred under his soft touch. She opened her eyes and smiled brightly.

" Good morning lover," she purred as she lifted her head to give him a soft kiss. Willow heard a crash followed by the sound of Xander swearing. She sat upright, " oh no the mess" she cried.

" Everyone will know" she blushed scarlet.

" It's all right Red, we're to be married, so Giles won't have to come after me with a stake" he chuckled touching the silver locket that hung between her breasts.

" Goddess, there is so much to be done." She said excitedly rolling out of bed and pulling on her robe.

" How long will you make me wait to be your husband Kitten?" Spike asked, pulling on a pair of sweatpants.

" Oh, I don't know, there are so many decisions to be made and arrangement." Willow said excitedly.

" Oh and Buffy can help me." "Come on lets go tell them?" Willow pulled Spike out the door by the hand. As Willow and Spike entered the living room, three pairs of eyes met theirs.

Xander glared at Spike venomously. Giles quickly looked away and resumed cleaning up the remnants of their wild sexual exploits. Buffy grinned and winked at the couple.

" I'm sorry, I meant to have that cleaned up but Willow distracted me this morning." Spike commented slyly.

" You guy's should give it a rest" Xander mumbled under his breath.

" We've got good news?" Willow said cheerfully.

< He's already got you knocked up Wills, I don't know if I can stand much more good news> Xander thought.

" Spike and I are going to be married." Willow beamed happily.

" Congratulation Willow, Spike" Buffy responded by hugging them both.

" Oh Buffy, we've so much to do," she said pulling her best friend down onto the couch.

" Don't just stand there, pick up that broom," Xander directed. Spike started to sweep up the remnants of china toward the pile Xander created.

" Willow seems really happy" Xander murmured. " If Willow's happy then I'm happy for her man, but I'm keeping my eye on you... one false move and ... phat... dust."

" Willow's lucky to have such a loyal mate as you, Xander" Spike said sincerely.

"I'm going to get a waste receptacle," Giles said moving toward the kitchen. Spike followed the watcher into the kitchen, " Giles, I know your not happy with the way things are between Willow and me... but.."

" No, You appear to make Willow very happy, and if anyone deserves it she does." Giles replied.

" Yes, she and the baby deserve so much more than I can give them, .. that's why I'm asking...we'll I'm not sure... I didn't..." Spike blew out his breath sharply. " They both need you in their life to make up for the kinds of things I'm not going to be able to give them.... I hate to admit it but your such a good role model...father figure.. maybe. For Willow's sake you could give me some advice and pointers." Spike asked earnestly. Giles was once again amazed at the vampire's humility. <He truly loves her and that child more than himself> " I 'm sure you'll be a better husband and father than you think" Giles replied. "Of course, nothing would make me happier than to continue to be an important part of 'your' families life". Giles responded holding out his hand to shake Spike's. " Perhaps we may even become friends."

The next several weeks passed in a blur. Willow hadn't been plagued by any more nightmares or trance states since Spike had returned to her bed. The plans for the wedding had been put in motion. Willow's parent were slowly coming round to the idea of their daughter marrying an older man, who wasn't even Jewish. Everyone decided it best not to tell them he was a vampire. Willow asked both Buffy and Xander to stand up for her. Willow and Spike agreed that Giles be the one to give her away. Spike asked Angel to be his best man, after some prodding from Willow. The Wedding was to be held in Witches Hollow in one week. The gang worked together to bring everything together. Willow decided she wanted the wedding to be outside and at a place which represented the couples love over time. The ceremony was to be held at 3:00 p.m. Giles agreed to perform a healing spell on Angel so that he to could be outside in the light. Willow and Spike decided that the reception could be held in the courtyard and gardens at the mansion.

The night before the wedding, Spike and Willow had an argument about some silly ritual. Buffy and Willow claimed it was bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the Wedding. Willow and Buffy wanted Spike to sleep elsewhere for the night and meet them at Witches Hollow the next day.

Spike thought this was ridiculous and said as much.

" I'll not leave tour bed for a stupid superstition, Red"

" If I'm so stupid why on earth would you want to marry me?"

" I never said that, your putting bloody words in my mouth now!"

" Well, maybe, I don't want to marry someone as stubborn and pig headed as you!" Willow yelled, beginning to cry.

Giles intervened and tried to play mediator.

" Spike, Willow, you both got a case of the jitters." " You both need to sit down calm down before you both say something your sorry about."

Both shot him a nasty look but sat.

" Alright now Spike, can you tell Willow how it makes you feel, to do what she's asking?"

Spike scowled at Giles; " I don't understand what she wants." ' I promised her when I came back that we would not be separated again not even for one night." " Now I'm supposed to break that promise so she can throw it up in my face later?" he said angrily. < I also am scared bloodless, I'm not about to admit that if I let her out of my sight she could change her mind and leave me. >

" Spike, that's so sweet" Willow cooed.

He looked at her suspiciously, is she still angry or is this some ply to trick me." He stared at her.

" I don't really want up to be separated either but, it'll be more fun tomorrow night," she grinned.

" I'll not leave you in the mansion." " What if you have one of those nightmare trances?"

" Buffy will sleep over?"

" You rather have her in your bed them me?"

" No, silly"

Spike paced and glared at Willow. < She doesn't look like she's going to budge. We'll I'm the demon in the family and I'll not leave..

"Perhaps a compromise?" Giles offered.

Both Willow and Spike looked at him.

" Willow you can sleep alone and Spike shall stay here in the mansion in another bedroom. You can manage to not see one another and Spike you can stay close to Willow to keep her safe."

They both conceded. Buffy came over and stood guard over Willow. Both girls giggled and laughed into the night. Spike wasn't going to take any chances. He dragged a pillow and blanket outside Willow's bedroom and crashed. < What are those women laughing about? >

In the morning Buffy shooed Spike away from the door. She sent Spike into the kitchen to help the caters set up the tent and make sure the food delivers was correct.

Giles spent the morning supervising the placement of the chairs and altar in Witches Hollow for the ceremony.

At about 1:00 p.m. Giles returned to the mansion to find both Angel and Xander pacing nervously as if they were the ones going to be married. Spike was sprawled across an armchair like he hadn't a care in the world. Giles couldn't help buy notice that the vamp had a stupid grin on his face.

" Have you been drinking?" he asked in alarm.

" Not a drop, I want to be able to keep up with my bride later." He chuckled devilishly.

" I think it's time we all change into our tuxes" Giles advised. " I'll go and see how Buffy and Willow are doing."

Giles knocked on Willow's bedroom door.

" Spike go away before I have to stake you." Buffy growled.

" Buffy it Giles, May I come in?" he asked

Buffy opened the door her hair in rollers. Willow sat calmly at the vanity applying makeup.

She turned and gave Giles a dazzling smile.

He couldn't help but smile back at her.

" So Willow, I can tell your doing fine." Giles said.

" Giles I'm so happy she gushed."

"It shows on your face my dear."

"Willow, I want you to know how glad I am that your so happy and that I'll always be here for you and you new family." He said kissing her brow softly.

Willow stood up and embraced Giles in a tight hug. " Oh Giles, I love you so much, I can't thank you enough for your support and friendship." She said tearfully.

" Here, here, don't mess up the lovely face, I'll let you both get ready and I'll be back to get you at 2:00." Giles said as he left.

Angel and Spike drove out together to the wedding sight.

Xander went with Giles to get Willow and Buffy. " Xander's breath caught in his throat as he saw how lovely his best friend look. She was wearing an off white, knee length dress. Willow back was bare down to her waist and her hair was pinned up and little red wisps frame her face. Buffy and Giles went off to drive the car up front of the mansion.

" Your gorgeous" Xander finally gasped.

" Thanks Xander,.. I will always love you.. you know that don't you?" Willow said softly touching his face.

Xander felt tears well up in his eyes, " yeah, me too Wills, and he hugged her tightly." " Come on you've got a wedding to get to."

It was time; the music-started strains of Pachelbel's Cannon in D Major could be heard across the meadow.

Giles took Willow's arm and placed it across his. " Are you ready?"

Willow nodded her head, her vale fluttering slightly in the summer breeze. She clutched the bouquet of wildflowers tightly as they began to walk towards the altar.

Willow looked at saw Angel with dark sunglasses smiling at her. Her eyes saw Buffy and Xander also smiling at her. Willow eyes looked at Spike. He stood grinning in his Ray Bans, his soft blond hair and fair complexion contrasted with his dark tux. Willow knew it was right this time and nothing and no one would separate them ever again.

Giles placed her hands in Spike's and moved back to sit down next to her parents.

Spike removed his glasses so he could look into Willow's shiny green eyes. He softly caressed her hand in his.

The minister began by welcoming the guest to witness this union. He explained that Willow and William had written their own vows.

The minister began, "William Ashton do you take Willow Ann Rosenberg to be your lawful wedded wife?"

"I do" he replied and smiled at her squeezing her hand.

"What have you to say to your bride?" he asked

William began:

I love you, Not only for what you are, But for what I am, when I am with you.

I love you, Not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me

I love you For the part of me that you bring out;

I love you For putting your hand, Into my heaped-up heart and passing over All the foolish, weak things That you can't help dimly seeing there, And for drawing out, Into the light, All the beautiful belongings That no one else had looked Quite far enough to find

I love you because you Are helping me to make the lumber of my life Not a tavern, but a temple; Out of the works of my every day Not a reproach, but a song

I love you because you have done More than any creed, could have done To make me good, And more than any fate Could have done, To make me happy You have done it Without a touch Without a word Without a sign You have done it, by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being a friend means After all.

I will love you forever; he ended kissing her hand.

"Willow, do you take this man to be your lawful husband?"

"I do", she replied

"What have you to say:"

Willow began:

Come my darling one, closer up against me, Creep right up, with your head pushed in my breast. How I love all of you! Do you feel me wrap you up with myself and my warmth, like a flame round the wick?

And how I am not at all, except a flame that mounts off you. Where I touch you, I flame into being-but is it me, or you? That head pushed in my chest, like a nut in a socket, And I the swift bracts that sheath it, your chest, your thighs, your knees,

Those shoulders so warm and strong: I feel that I am sunlight upon them that shines into being. I feel that we are a bonfire of oneness, me flame flung round you, You the core of the fire, crept into me, And oh, my darling, you whom I enfold, How quaveringly I depend on you, to keep me alive Like a flame on a wick!

I the women who enfolds you and holds you close, How my soul cleaves to your chest as I clasp you, The very quick of my being. I now am full and strong and certain with you firm at the core of me, keeping me

How sure I feel, how warm and strong and happy, for the future! How sure the future is within me, I am like a seed with a perfect flower enclosed. I wonder what it will be, What will come forth of us? What flower, my love

No matter, I am happy, I feel like a firm, rich healthy root, Rejoicing in what is to come

And there will come forth from us, we two folded together A child. Willow uttered moving Spikes hand to touch her abdomen, her eyes dropped tears.

And you will always be with me. I shall never cease to be filled with newness, having you near me.

Red tears spilled from William's eyes. The minister asked, " What tokens of love do you give one another?"

Angel handed Spike Willow's ring. William slipped a gold band surrounded by emeralds unto her finger."I give this ring as a token of my love, it shall forever remain unbroken."

Willow took the gold band from Buffy and slid it onto Spike's finger " I give this ring as a token of my love, it shall forever remain unbroken."

"I minister in Sunnydale am empowered to pronounce you man and wife. What God has brought together let no man put asunder. You may kiss your bride."

Spike lifted Willow's vale, her eyes glistening like diamonds, and he caressed her face and kissed her lips gently. He was whole, complete, he was home.

The crowd clapped and cheered. Xander, Angel, Buffy and Giles were all crying.

Later that evening Spike pulled Willow out of Xander's arms as they were dancing.

" I'd like a chance to dance with my wife if you don't mind." Spike said grinning.

He whispered into Willow's ear. " Come, let us have a private dance" he asked as he pulled her out from under the tent and deeper into the courtyard.

He took her into his arms and kissed her softly, " I love you so much, Red, you make me feel complete."

Willow kissed him back, " Darling I love you too, it's right this time, everything will work out."

" Look we're dancing under a blue moon."

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